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my heart is pounding just like it did way back when... when i left something unfinished. i think it's still waiting. but i dont know how or when... it hurts so bad. i'm gonna die from a broken heart. inside has been telling me to do something but i dont know what it is! and at first i thought it was to solve the issue because as i was standing in front of my opportunity, the little voice would shut off. finally. but now as i stand in front... as i stand beside... as i stand in back and as i face it, it still yells out to me. two paths? i have to pick? and i have to pick now, before it's too late, which is soon? but which way? ...which one is right?! is there a right one? are they both right, or both wrong? can i pick both if i really try hard? or should i ditch both pathways and make my own?
..... tony just called like, now. he makes me happy. i think everyone makes me happy. he's awesome. his birthday is january 2nd and everyone forgets his birthday because they're so passed out from new years. and he just started a new band with his friends. he plays guitar. and he thinks that me and my sister are identical. but we're not. and he looked different yesterday from the last time saw him. ... i met him when i was taking drum lessons... he was sitting outside the place and i sat next to him.... and he started talking to me. then i would always see him after class cuz our classes ended at the same time... and sometimes we'd talk... and sometimes we wouldn't. then one day, i saw him at church and i was like whoa!! you come here too?!! and then i started talking to him... and my friends came to sit with us and then we were all having a nice conversation and we lived happily ever after... until he went out with my friend. which sucked cuz she was like playing him so bad. and she broke his heart and i was like wtf?! then after a while that they were going out... she completely avoided him and ran away when she saw him and stuff and when i talked to him again he was all depressed and he was like "yeah.. i dont know.. she's different now" or something and i wanted to cry with him...
YOU'RE AWESOME TONY!!
..... tony just called like, now. he makes me happy. i think everyone makes me happy. he's awesome. his birthday is january 2nd and everyone forgets his birthday because they're so passed out from new years. and he just started a new band with his friends. he plays guitar. and he thinks that me and my sister are identical. but we're not. and he looked different yesterday from the last time saw him. ... i met him when i was taking drum lessons... he was sitting outside the place and i sat next to him.... and he started talking to me. then i would always see him after class cuz our classes ended at the same time... and sometimes we'd talk... and sometimes we wouldn't. then one day, i saw him at church and i was like whoa!! you come here too?!! and then i started talking to him... and my friends came to sit with us and then we were all having a nice conversation and we lived happily ever after... until he went out with my friend. which sucked cuz she was like playing him so bad. and she broke his heart and i was like wtf?! then after a while that they were going out... she completely avoided him and ran away when she saw him and stuff and when i talked to him again he was all depressed and he was like "yeah.. i dont know.. she's different now" or something and i wanted to cry with him...
YOU'RE AWESOME TONY!!