Level 31.

[gamesandguns]

Near can be a jealous asshole on his own. I'm sick of being treated like dirt from him just because of some demented envy in relation to myself and Mello.

I know I'm not L, M, or N. I know I'm not one of you three, I know I'm out of the loop, and I know I'm "less important". You don't have to tell me that I'm "not one of you", that I'm "just a replacement". You've essentially negated my friendship with Mello, and expect me to bend over backwards. Expect me to step back.

I get it.

You're infatuated with Mello. I'm not blind. I can see it.

I died for someone I love and care about on someone's command, someone who is first in my world no matter how many times I've been made aware I'm not first in his.

But I am not obligated nor bound to anyone other than Mello.

I owe Near nothing to keep his secrets which he can barely keep himself. I do not have to listen to L. I am bound only to Mello.

I am not going to let myself get bullied by you, Near. Or whatever you're attempting to do. Idiot. You just don't get it, do you?