Stop Now

[gamer_x2]

... Well it's 12:03am. I had to stay awake, to make a new entry under a new day. I didn't want to excede 2 entries in one day. That would have just been silly. I am very very tired. I want to sleep, but I figured it was best for me to stay awake for a while long instead of going to bed earlier and waking up at 6am. I want to get 8 hours of sleep. I really really want to start exercising. I looked at myself today in the mirror and I just felt disgusted. I know that i'm not fat, but I am WAYYY out of shape and I don't know how much longer I can take it. I don't think I should write anything down on like a to do list because that just doesn't seem to be working. I never do it, so it's like I make the list, the night before and then the next day, I look @ it and i'm soo disappointed. So maybe if I didn't put my expectations up there, I would subconciously do it. That, I would exercise and stuffies, instead of being restricted to doing certain things. I don't even know if that made sense. I want to do this with Anthony, but I don't know how we're going to go about doing it. He said his weight is bothering him also, so I figured we could do it together, motivate each other. That would be good. I just don't know where to start. Oh well. I am soo tired, I think I should go to bed. I am being cranky..

Have a good night / morning everyone <3.

I love you Anthony ( I know you don't read this, but that's okay )