summa summa summa time
I love the weather. minus the wind. the wind makes me want to have short hair so I don't have to be concerned with it.
today is my sister, Stacey's, birthday. she is 31. it doesn't seem like long ago we were celebrating her 22nd birthday. I went over to wish her a happy birthday and give her the card and gift I got for her. we chatted for a bit about: her impending marriage date, the house her and her fiance are getting built, etc. amongst the etc. was the fact that my sister holly, who lives in Georgia, has a football sized tumor in her abdominal region, and is getting surgery in a month to get it removed. apparently everyone except me had known this for a month. my parents are terrible at passing along information. the surgery should be a breeze, and holly should be fine. it's about as close to a 100% success rate as you can get, for surgery. they may have to remove part of her uterus, but it should not impede on her ability to have children.
I think I may have to postpone visiting Ottawa. for financial reasons, time reasons, and automobile reasons. I am less than sure about the ability of my car to make the trip. and my stats for visiting Ottawa by car are unfriendly. 0 successful trips 2 unsuccessful trips, as far as me making it there and back with no car trouble is concerned. and I can't really afford to take 4 days off work right now. as much as I miss a lot of people there, and how much I want to see you all, it just doesn't seem like the right thing to do right now. as an unsuccessful trip could result in a disastrous way. so I will take this opportunity to apologize to you in Ottawa, those who knew, and those who didn't. I will try to make a trip up there soon, however.
in 5 days I will be 22. I feel unaffected by this. except for the fact that I should be nearing graduation, and it only seems to be getting further away. all I need is the opportunity to get back into school. as I have decided a major, and a minor. political science with an English minor. offering me the chance to learn everything I ever wanted to know about politics, and expand my knowledge of the subject. and also how to write, and speak, compelling arguments, articles, and basically anything else I choose.
I have had an oddly familiar feeling lately. I'm unsure of whether it is the weather, or just the time of year, or some other factor I am neglecting to realize. but it seems very familiar, it's hard to explain. it's kind of like when a smell reminds you of something that happened years upon years ago. sort of.
since this entry is already completely out of hand in length, I am going to add a little more.
Saturday was rather productive, as I cleaned my room and closet. and also washed every article of clothing I own, and rid myself of the clothes I no longer wear. leaving me with a lot of clothes still. most are things I will only wear occasionally, such as dress clothes. I choose not to rid myself of them, in case I need them. yesterday we had a show, it was a fairly good time, despite my lackluster appearance for the better part of the evening.
today is the first time in weeks I have actually felt awake, alert, and not anxious. I cannot fully explain that either.
tomorrow I am hanging out with rob. this is always a good time and I look forward to it. today, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I work. Thursday I am working a 250-300 person party, resulting in-quite possibly-a very large tip. Saturday is my birthday, and a show at Matt Ryan's house. Sunday is open, if I have any takers. I may take that day for myself however, or for a family birthday gathering.
also today, I switched to camel wide lights, and will continue to downgrade/cut back on smoking, so I can eventually quit, when I am ready to.
I apologize for the length of this, I have no idea what has overcome me.
I am now going to go enjoy the breeze blowing through my house, watch some television, and possibly make a salad.
hope everyone has a pleasant day. if you have nothing to do, go outside. enjoy it for those who will be working.
today is my sister, Stacey's, birthday. she is 31. it doesn't seem like long ago we were celebrating her 22nd birthday. I went over to wish her a happy birthday and give her the card and gift I got for her. we chatted for a bit about: her impending marriage date, the house her and her fiance are getting built, etc. amongst the etc. was the fact that my sister holly, who lives in Georgia, has a football sized tumor in her abdominal region, and is getting surgery in a month to get it removed. apparently everyone except me had known this for a month. my parents are terrible at passing along information. the surgery should be a breeze, and holly should be fine. it's about as close to a 100% success rate as you can get, for surgery. they may have to remove part of her uterus, but it should not impede on her ability to have children.
I think I may have to postpone visiting Ottawa. for financial reasons, time reasons, and automobile reasons. I am less than sure about the ability of my car to make the trip. and my stats for visiting Ottawa by car are unfriendly. 0 successful trips 2 unsuccessful trips, as far as me making it there and back with no car trouble is concerned. and I can't really afford to take 4 days off work right now. as much as I miss a lot of people there, and how much I want to see you all, it just doesn't seem like the right thing to do right now. as an unsuccessful trip could result in a disastrous way. so I will take this opportunity to apologize to you in Ottawa, those who knew, and those who didn't. I will try to make a trip up there soon, however.
in 5 days I will be 22. I feel unaffected by this. except for the fact that I should be nearing graduation, and it only seems to be getting further away. all I need is the opportunity to get back into school. as I have decided a major, and a minor. political science with an English minor. offering me the chance to learn everything I ever wanted to know about politics, and expand my knowledge of the subject. and also how to write, and speak, compelling arguments, articles, and basically anything else I choose.
I have had an oddly familiar feeling lately. I'm unsure of whether it is the weather, or just the time of year, or some other factor I am neglecting to realize. but it seems very familiar, it's hard to explain. it's kind of like when a smell reminds you of something that happened years upon years ago. sort of.
since this entry is already completely out of hand in length, I am going to add a little more.
Saturday was rather productive, as I cleaned my room and closet. and also washed every article of clothing I own, and rid myself of the clothes I no longer wear. leaving me with a lot of clothes still. most are things I will only wear occasionally, such as dress clothes. I choose not to rid myself of them, in case I need them. yesterday we had a show, it was a fairly good time, despite my lackluster appearance for the better part of the evening.
today is the first time in weeks I have actually felt awake, alert, and not anxious. I cannot fully explain that either.
tomorrow I am hanging out with rob. this is always a good time and I look forward to it. today, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I work. Thursday I am working a 250-300 person party, resulting in-quite possibly-a very large tip. Saturday is my birthday, and a show at Matt Ryan's house. Sunday is open, if I have any takers. I may take that day for myself however, or for a family birthday gathering.
also today, I switched to camel wide lights, and will continue to downgrade/cut back on smoking, so I can eventually quit, when I am ready to.
I apologize for the length of this, I have no idea what has overcome me.
I am now going to go enjoy the breeze blowing through my house, watch some television, and possibly make a salad.
hope everyone has a pleasant day. if you have nothing to do, go outside. enjoy it for those who will be working.