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Man. There needs to be a word for that rush of information to that head that seems almost like deja vu..But is exactly the opposite of it. Like where you see something you know in a different way..Even though it's never changed. Where there's a vertigo type of rush to the brain. I don't know, maybe there is a word..And maybe I'm just crazy. Who knows.
The past several months have been a blur. I mean a literal blur sometimes. There have really been moments when I thought of something that happened a week ago and have thought of it as yesterday. It's been really weird. My time with Alisha seems to pass so quickly. We've passed together into this couple that we are so quickly. It's all so strange to me.
I've forgotten so much over the past while, I think. I don't know. A few weeks ago I became an uncle as my sister had Phoenix Rose Bogard. I really haven't seen the baby too much but I have held it. It's weird how I said I really haven't changed..But I know I have. I don't know if it's all for the better, but I'm trying, I really am. I don't play that much basketball any longer, which actually isn't mostly my fault. No one ever goes to Sacred. I rarely ever play my Xbox any longer, but that's fine..I'm still the same geek. I don't see some people as often as I used to. I almost never see Fortner now. That sucks. He rarely comes to play ball and I don't hang out much otherwise unless with Alisha.
So that feeling I was talking about. It nailed me on the way home from her house today. Nailed me, man. I was scared for a moment. It was like I just saw her in my mind and for a moment I didn't know who she was. It just is so weird to me for her to be so close. Unreal, is what I think I want. But not unwanted at all. It was weird leaving her house before then, too. It felt almost like a long goodbye because she starts school tomorrow. And my summer ended. The first time in years that my summer ended because of an event and not the weather. School actually affects me now. I won't be able to see near as much of her as I really want to now and it's going to be tough. We've promised each other to help each other stick through it and be there for one another as well as we can. Bleh. I love that girl.
Have a nice day.
The past several months have been a blur. I mean a literal blur sometimes. There have really been moments when I thought of something that happened a week ago and have thought of it as yesterday. It's been really weird. My time with Alisha seems to pass so quickly. We've passed together into this couple that we are so quickly. It's all so strange to me.
I've forgotten so much over the past while, I think. I don't know. A few weeks ago I became an uncle as my sister had Phoenix Rose Bogard. I really haven't seen the baby too much but I have held it. It's weird how I said I really haven't changed..But I know I have. I don't know if it's all for the better, but I'm trying, I really am. I don't play that much basketball any longer, which actually isn't mostly my fault. No one ever goes to Sacred. I rarely ever play my Xbox any longer, but that's fine..I'm still the same geek. I don't see some people as often as I used to. I almost never see Fortner now. That sucks. He rarely comes to play ball and I don't hang out much otherwise unless with Alisha.
So that feeling I was talking about. It nailed me on the way home from her house today. Nailed me, man. I was scared for a moment. It was like I just saw her in my mind and for a moment I didn't know who she was. It just is so weird to me for her to be so close. Unreal, is what I think I want. But not unwanted at all. It was weird leaving her house before then, too. It felt almost like a long goodbye because she starts school tomorrow. And my summer ended. The first time in years that my summer ended because of an event and not the weather. School actually affects me now. I won't be able to see near as much of her as I really want to now and it's going to be tough. We've promised each other to help each other stick through it and be there for one another as well as we can. Bleh. I love that girl.
Have a nice day.