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Random Life Update (and public):
-Work Life: Same ol, same ol really. Things have been going well there though….no drama, etc. In fact, it has been great! I found out that I’m going to be able to work part time starting in January, as I hoped. This means that I won’t have to move away from the bay area, I’ll keep my benefits, and I’ll be able to go back to school without taking as large of a student loan. We also bid our shifts for the rest of the year. I’m going to be staying on my favorite shift, 1700-0300, and I’ll have Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays off for the rest of the year. A year straight of weekends off (minus overtime)…you can’t beat that!
-Home Life: No complaints there either. Things with the new roomie have been going well, and we just decided to sign a lease for another 6 months. Of course, they’re raising the rent AGAIN though. It’s going to be $1887/month, plus utilities, etc. Once I go part time next year and back to school, I’ll have to start looking for a cheaper place to live. Hmmmm….I think I might be sharing a one bedroom with someone.
-Family Life: Another same ol, same ol. Last week, my brother became an adult. That seemed pretty crazy to me. I have such a vivid memory of going to the hospital the day he was born. Now he’s all grown up, will be graduating high school, has a long term girlfriend, helps my father with his business, and is a man. Go figure. My dad is going to be taking him sky diving as a present. You can bet I’ll be going again too..heh. Speaking of my father, he will be 50 next month…another milestone. Him and my step-mom own beachfront property in Mexico which they plan to develop and retire to in about a year. Later this year, they’ll be buying an airplane so my dad can fly back and forth every few weeks to keep his business running smoothly up here. He even offered to leave the plane here so I could use it for whatever I needed. I’d only have to go pick him up in Mexico every 3 weeks. That will be awesome. It amazes me to see how much he has changed. This is the man who used to make me give him 20 cents as a child if I wanted sour cream on my taco at Taco Bell.
Love Life: Ok ok…I saved the best for last. Well, at least I think it’s the best! Hmph! As you might have guessed from my last entry posted shortly after Valentine’s Day, I have a boyfriend now…his name is Joven. I was a little reluctant to post anything else about him though…mainly because Matt was a little upset when he first found out about him, and I didn’t want to seem like I was rubbing anything in his face. Since then though, he has assured me that he’s ok with it….and I’ve decided that I shouldn’t really let that dictate what I post anyways.
Sooooooooooooooooooo. Joven and I met through Desi. He is the friend/photographer that took whatever professional pictures I have of myself. We arranged to catch dinner one night and instantly hit it off…even though he was 10 minutes late..heheh. Honestly, I wasn’t expecting anything but dinner. I was simply hoping to make another friend. When Matt and I broke up last summer, I told myself that I was going to stay single…concentrate on my life, and what was best for me. I guess this just proves that one never really has control of these types of things. Besides, I think he IS what’s best for me! He is such an amazing person on every level, and I wish I was more eloquent with my words…because I have that hunch that no matter what I said, it wouldn’t do what my heart is feeling any justice. I feel things I have never felt, and I’ve fallen completely in love. I’d love to sit here and name all the little things, but you guys would all think I was nuts ;) heh.
Of course, things are a little bittersweet. On April 18th, he will be going to Europe and won’t return until October 10th. Yup, that’s almost 6 months. Just before we met, he signed a contract to be a dancer on a cruise ship. I knew that ever since that first dinner, and it has been haunting me in a way ever since then. At first, I tried to look at things objectively…I asked myself what advice I would give to a person if they were in the same situation and came to me for help. I thought that I’d probably tell him to put it on hold since he hadn’t been with the person very long. It still makes “sense” ….but it would feel utterly wrong….and I refuse to even take the chance of losing something that feels so utterly right. For the past month, he has been in Los Angeles, rehearsing the shows for the ship. Luckily, we have had the same days off, and have been able to commute during the weekends to see eachother. Today, he flew back to LA. This was the last weekend he’d be in the Bay Area until October….just another reminder that time is ticking down. I’ll be going to LA the next 2 weekends, and then he’ll be off to Lisbon, Portugal where he embarks from.
So, am I crazy? You betcha. Am I happy? Beyond words. Well, don’t get me wrong…I’m going to be a mess in a couple weeks, and probably have quite a few yucky moments this summer…but no pain, no gain, right? I’ll even make a confession that I’m not proud of. I’m bitter. I’ve never really considered myself to be a bitter person….but for once, I am..haha. I’m bitter that he gets to travel around Europe for 6 months, only work 20 hours/week, and have the time of his life while I’m going to be sitting here, bored on my ass, working 50+ hours/week to pay off bills..haha. There, I said it!! …but I’m also very happy for him, and I don’t blame him for anything. It’s an awesome opportunity! I’ll just be counting down the days…which there are 174 of. No really, I wrote them on my calendar already! …along with what ports he’ll be in so at least I’ll know where he’s at. Modern technology is wonderful too. We’ll be able to talk to eachother (and with a video camera) for 10 cents/minute while he’s on the ship. That’s not too bad!
Oh….and we’ve already booked a cruise for me in June, so it’ll only be two 3-month periods that I won’t see him..heh.
Alright…I’m rambling now...but that’s life in a nutshell for me….I’m very happy, very anxious, and very excited to see what’s coming up in my future!!
-Work Life: Same ol, same ol really. Things have been going well there though….no drama, etc. In fact, it has been great! I found out that I’m going to be able to work part time starting in January, as I hoped. This means that I won’t have to move away from the bay area, I’ll keep my benefits, and I’ll be able to go back to school without taking as large of a student loan. We also bid our shifts for the rest of the year. I’m going to be staying on my favorite shift, 1700-0300, and I’ll have Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays off for the rest of the year. A year straight of weekends off (minus overtime)…you can’t beat that!
-Home Life: No complaints there either. Things with the new roomie have been going well, and we just decided to sign a lease for another 6 months. Of course, they’re raising the rent AGAIN though. It’s going to be $1887/month, plus utilities, etc. Once I go part time next year and back to school, I’ll have to start looking for a cheaper place to live. Hmmmm….I think I might be sharing a one bedroom with someone.
-Family Life: Another same ol, same ol. Last week, my brother became an adult. That seemed pretty crazy to me. I have such a vivid memory of going to the hospital the day he was born. Now he’s all grown up, will be graduating high school, has a long term girlfriend, helps my father with his business, and is a man. Go figure. My dad is going to be taking him sky diving as a present. You can bet I’ll be going again too..heh. Speaking of my father, he will be 50 next month…another milestone. Him and my step-mom own beachfront property in Mexico which they plan to develop and retire to in about a year. Later this year, they’ll be buying an airplane so my dad can fly back and forth every few weeks to keep his business running smoothly up here. He even offered to leave the plane here so I could use it for whatever I needed. I’d only have to go pick him up in Mexico every 3 weeks. That will be awesome. It amazes me to see how much he has changed. This is the man who used to make me give him 20 cents as a child if I wanted sour cream on my taco at Taco Bell.
Love Life: Ok ok…I saved the best for last. Well, at least I think it’s the best! Hmph! As you might have guessed from my last entry posted shortly after Valentine’s Day, I have a boyfriend now…his name is Joven. I was a little reluctant to post anything else about him though…mainly because Matt was a little upset when he first found out about him, and I didn’t want to seem like I was rubbing anything in his face. Since then though, he has assured me that he’s ok with it….and I’ve decided that I shouldn’t really let that dictate what I post anyways.
Sooooooooooooooooooo. Joven and I met through Desi. He is the friend/photographer that took whatever professional pictures I have of myself. We arranged to catch dinner one night and instantly hit it off…even though he was 10 minutes late..heheh. Honestly, I wasn’t expecting anything but dinner. I was simply hoping to make another friend. When Matt and I broke up last summer, I told myself that I was going to stay single…concentrate on my life, and what was best for me. I guess this just proves that one never really has control of these types of things. Besides, I think he IS what’s best for me! He is such an amazing person on every level, and I wish I was more eloquent with my words…because I have that hunch that no matter what I said, it wouldn’t do what my heart is feeling any justice. I feel things I have never felt, and I’ve fallen completely in love. I’d love to sit here and name all the little things, but you guys would all think I was nuts ;) heh.
Of course, things are a little bittersweet. On April 18th, he will be going to Europe and won’t return until October 10th. Yup, that’s almost 6 months. Just before we met, he signed a contract to be a dancer on a cruise ship. I knew that ever since that first dinner, and it has been haunting me in a way ever since then. At first, I tried to look at things objectively…I asked myself what advice I would give to a person if they were in the same situation and came to me for help. I thought that I’d probably tell him to put it on hold since he hadn’t been with the person very long. It still makes “sense” ….but it would feel utterly wrong….and I refuse to even take the chance of losing something that feels so utterly right. For the past month, he has been in Los Angeles, rehearsing the shows for the ship. Luckily, we have had the same days off, and have been able to commute during the weekends to see eachother. Today, he flew back to LA. This was the last weekend he’d be in the Bay Area until October….just another reminder that time is ticking down. I’ll be going to LA the next 2 weekends, and then he’ll be off to Lisbon, Portugal where he embarks from.
So, am I crazy? You betcha. Am I happy? Beyond words. Well, don’t get me wrong…I’m going to be a mess in a couple weeks, and probably have quite a few yucky moments this summer…but no pain, no gain, right? I’ll even make a confession that I’m not proud of. I’m bitter. I’ve never really considered myself to be a bitter person….but for once, I am..haha. I’m bitter that he gets to travel around Europe for 6 months, only work 20 hours/week, and have the time of his life while I’m going to be sitting here, bored on my ass, working 50+ hours/week to pay off bills..haha. There, I said it!! …but I’m also very happy for him, and I don’t blame him for anything. It’s an awesome opportunity! I’ll just be counting down the days…which there are 174 of. No really, I wrote them on my calendar already! …along with what ports he’ll be in so at least I’ll know where he’s at. Modern technology is wonderful too. We’ll be able to talk to eachother (and with a video camera) for 10 cents/minute while he’s on the ship. That’s not too bad!
Oh….and we’ve already booked a cruise for me in June, so it’ll only be two 3-month periods that I won’t see him..heh.
Alright…I’m rambling now...but that’s life in a nutshell for me….I’m very happy, very anxious, and very excited to see what’s coming up in my future!!