sleepless - grey's anatomy
Something's wrong with me. I can't really understand why everytime I watch Grey's Anatomy I end up crying like a stupid child.
I loved first and second season, even if my hate for Meredith started from the second episode. Then things went wild but it's ok, I keep watching it cause at last I love some character. Ok, being honest: I've watched it because of Cristina (L). Now reason is the same, plus Owen *__* And obviously Mark even if they dared to cut Addie out. My dear beloved lovely adorable Addie. I've always believed - firmly - she's a lot better than Moaning Grey. And I don't think anymore she's unappreciated, cause a) I really don't understand how is it possible not to love her and 2) ... then why they sent her miles away from Derek/Mark/Moaning Grey? Ok, we all don't need an answer. Addie rocks.
But still... there's something in this telefilm that hits me where it hurts [... is it the proper way to tell that screenplayers cut me like a knife most of the time?!]. So this time we have Owen and his living in the after and when he says so - with those eyes... u_u - I can't help thinking is the same place I am now. In the after, wich is not a safely place at all, it's just somewhere, you're in the middle and while you try to manage to survive or understand your next step, life goes her way, around you. It's confusing, and the ghost of the past always hunts you, telling you how much better you were before. But irony of fate (?!) past is gone, and there's no way you can fix things putting them like they were before, honestly sometimes it's difficult to remember how it was. I just know the feeling. On the other side, there are times you can perfectly say how things used to be, perfectly, in every part of them, and this is the worst time. Point is that everything is possible, even going on on your way, and even if you would'nt, life tells you you have no choice and she proves you that she's the boss making rules you have to follow. It's ok with that at the end. You can do a lot of things meanwhile.
And that was Owen's faults.
Then came Addison. And the Addison/Derek thing. I admit I have remorses. A lot of remorses, but more than remorses I have regrets. I also admit at first I wanted Addison and Derek to be a couple again, and sometimes I still wish she came back for him. And that's only because I fucking need to know that to fix things is possible. About Mark: is because I need to know that you can be loved once in your life, and loved in that way, in his way. Completely, for what you are, all of you, even if you make a lot of mistakes, you loose your path and take the wrong one, even if you're pessimistic, sarcastic, absent minded and scared. Even if you're damaged. He loved her, and made a bet with and on her. And he would have kept his word. He would have kept his word.
Danny is another story and tells how I love Alex XD Death is death, once you're gone you can never come back. So, finally stop it. Alex is there, there for her, and of course he does the wrong thins most of the time but at last he's still there to repare it. He's alive, Izzy is alive. They're alive and Danny is dead, nobody's fault, but that's what happened. They're alive and Danny is dead, he's in the past, he's away, he's on vacation... how do you want to tell it? He's not here. And all this episodes just to tell us she's sick? All this "I'm here for you" bubbling just because he had to play this stupid riddle? A brain-teaser: guess why you see your dead fiance?! He should have said her the truth from the beginning, instead of playing this trick. "Ehy hon, too bad we can't shag anymore but I'm here just to tell you you're gonna die. Is it ok for you? Well I still love you, I'll always do, now deal with it and we're gonna see each other soon, mh? Enjoy your weekend". That's the proper way, not hurting her too much. And for god sake... Alex is there for her, not Danny. u__u
I loved first and second season, even if my hate for Meredith started from the second episode. Then things went wild but it's ok, I keep watching it cause at last I love some character. Ok, being honest: I've watched it because of Cristina (L). Now reason is the same, plus Owen *__* And obviously Mark even if they dared to cut Addie out. My dear beloved lovely adorable Addie. I've always believed - firmly - she's a lot better than Moaning Grey. And I don't think anymore she's unappreciated, cause a) I really don't understand how is it possible not to love her and 2) ... then why they sent her miles away from Derek/Mark/Moaning Grey? Ok, we all don't need an answer. Addie rocks.
But still... there's something in this telefilm that hits me where it hurts [... is it the proper way to tell that screenplayers cut me like a knife most of the time?!]. So this time we have Owen and his living in the after and when he says so - with those eyes... u_u - I can't help thinking is the same place I am now. In the after, wich is not a safely place at all, it's just somewhere, you're in the middle and while you try to manage to survive or understand your next step, life goes her way, around you. It's confusing, and the ghost of the past always hunts you, telling you how much better you were before. But irony of fate (?!) past is gone, and there's no way you can fix things putting them like they were before, honestly sometimes it's difficult to remember how it was. I just know the feeling. On the other side, there are times you can perfectly say how things used to be, perfectly, in every part of them, and this is the worst time. Point is that everything is possible, even going on on your way, and even if you would'nt, life tells you you have no choice and she proves you that she's the boss making rules you have to follow. It's ok with that at the end. You can do a lot of things meanwhile.
And that was Owen's faults.
Then came Addison. And the Addison/Derek thing. I admit I have remorses. A lot of remorses, but more than remorses I have regrets. I also admit at first I wanted Addison and Derek to be a couple again, and sometimes I still wish she came back for him. And that's only because I fucking need to know that to fix things is possible. About Mark: is because I need to know that you can be loved once in your life, and loved in that way, in his way. Completely, for what you are, all of you, even if you make a lot of mistakes, you loose your path and take the wrong one, even if you're pessimistic, sarcastic, absent minded and scared. Even if you're damaged. He loved her, and made a bet with and on her. And he would have kept his word. He would have kept his word.
Danny is another story and tells how I love Alex XD Death is death, once you're gone you can never come back. So, finally stop it. Alex is there, there for her, and of course he does the wrong thins most of the time but at last he's still there to repare it. He's alive, Izzy is alive. They're alive and Danny is dead, nobody's fault, but that's what happened. They're alive and Danny is dead, he's in the past, he's away, he's on vacation... how do you want to tell it? He's not here. And all this episodes just to tell us she's sick? All this "I'm here for you" bubbling just because he had to play this stupid riddle? A brain-teaser: guess why you see your dead fiance?! He should have said her the truth from the beginning, instead of playing this trick. "Ehy hon, too bad we can't shag anymore but I'm here just to tell you you're gonna die. Is it ok for you? Well I still love you, I'll always do, now deal with it and we're gonna see each other soon, mh? Enjoy your weekend". That's the proper way, not hurting her too much. And for god sake... Alex is there for her, not Danny. u__u