So ready to go home...
All I want to do is go home. I don't really like Japanese and I'm pretty sucky at it. In any event I haven't got a C right now and it turns out that that is what I need to credit for Japanese, 3 classes worth of Japanese. I can't fail 3 classes, I just can't... if that happened then I would have to overload senior year, lose my scholarship and disapoint my parents all in one fell swoop. so... I'll be working my ass off for the last three weeks and my life will suck even more than it has lately. I console myself with the reminder that it's almost over, the pain will end soon... I just need to keep going, I'm to the point where the insprirational music doesn't help much and am feeling very lost. I was starting to feel better about sucking in class (even though I try) when the I was forcibly reminded that I need these credits, badly. goddamn it. i hate jcmu, the fact that they put me into a japanese class that was too advanced for me in the first place and the fact that their method of teaching and testing makes it virtually impossible for me to get a C and not spend my entire time in japan memorizing dialouges and readings. I also hate K for their shitty shitty japanese program that after studying for 6 semseters at K I wasn't properly prepared to take japanese 2. fuck you all