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I have been thinking about getting that lapband surgery thing for a few years now. I keep gaining weight it's usually not a whole lot at one time but over the years it has become wayyy too much. I am trying to change my eating habbits, I am even thinking about going vegan for at least a little while to see if that will help me. I really need to loose AT LEAST a 100 pounds which is a very big number. Two years ago I was doing pretty good with going to the gym and watching my calories, but then I had surgery on my hand and that all was over. Not because of the surgery, but because ever since then i have been taking painkillers of some kind at least 3-6 days a week. the last time i took one was only a week or two ago, but i have realized I cared about nothing while i was taking them. at first i took then for pain. Then I took them for emotional pain and to escape my life for a little while. All the sudden I am remembering I wanted to get fit, and go to school, and move, and get a new job, and travel. And it feels great until I remember all the time i have wasted, then it's just kind of depressing. I don't think i was addicted to them, but maybe i am just in denial.
Anyway I am going to try not to take any for at least two or three months, then if i want to again i will use them only in moderation, but hopefully the feeling of disgust i have for them at the moment will not go away.
The dogs next door are becoming more of a probelm, the male blue on keeps getting out now since sharky is gone. He comes into the un-gated portion of my yard and picks fights with clementine and porkchop through the fence. The last time it happend the dog's hips were sticking out and his fur looked terrible like it was going to fall off :( I don't know if i should call the aniaml controll. If the take the dogs they are going to put them down, but i guess its more humane than starving to death and being chained up 75% of the day with no water or food.
Anyway I am going to try not to take any for at least two or three months, then if i want to again i will use them only in moderation, but hopefully the feeling of disgust i have for them at the moment will not go away.
The dogs next door are becoming more of a probelm, the male blue on keeps getting out now since sharky is gone. He comes into the un-gated portion of my yard and picks fights with clementine and porkchop through the fence. The last time it happend the dog's hips were sticking out and his fur looked terrible like it was going to fall off :( I don't know if i should call the aniaml controll. If the take the dogs they are going to put them down, but i guess its more humane than starving to death and being chained up 75% of the day with no water or food.