Eight years is a long time, especially when growing from child(age/ish) to adult(age/ish). Everyone goes through these weird caterpillar/butterfly transformations, but I don't think people get done with their transformations until they stop growing/changing and when you stop, you get boring.
For example: I did the work-in-an-office thing. In fact, I saw my old boss this morning as I was biking to school. I realized in the course of the 3-4 years I worked there that office life is not for me. But it took those 3-4 years to figure it out. I realize now that I was making decent money, I could fully support myself, pay rent, most of my bills, etc. But, I'm happier now. I'm broke, I can't even afford to take the bus to school (I bike instead), my dad has to help me out. But I know I'm working towards something bigger, something I'll love (I'm not sure WHAT, but still...). I'm no longer bogged down by a job and restrictions in dress code, etc. I have absolutely no free time anymore, and that's the way it's gonna be for a few years. But I'm OK with myself. I'm being true to who I am now. Am I the same person I was 8 years ago? (2001... just starting college...) No, I'm a different person, I have more experience, but I'm also more secure in my personality.
We all go through changes in life and we will always change over the course of years (hopefully, change is a good thing).
The important thing is that YOU like who you are. You need to be at peace with yourself first. This might mean sometimes finding new friends with your new interests, or changing a major, or breaking ties with people/places that you have grown out of. But that's OK, and all part of the process. It doesn't really matter what other people think as long as you are happy with yourself and know that you can deal with whatever good things and/or bad things that come your way from being who you are.
For example: I did the work-in-an-office thing. In fact, I saw my old boss this morning as I was biking to school. I realized in the course of the 3-4 years I worked there that office life is not for me. But it took those 3-4 years to figure it out. I realize now that I was making decent money, I could fully support myself, pay rent, most of my bills, etc. But, I'm happier now. I'm broke, I can't even afford to take the bus to school (I bike instead), my dad has to help me out. But I know I'm working towards something bigger, something I'll love (I'm not sure WHAT, but still...). I'm no longer bogged down by a job and restrictions in dress code, etc. I have absolutely no free time anymore, and that's the way it's gonna be for a few years. But I'm OK with myself. I'm being true to who I am now. Am I the same person I was 8 years ago? (2001... just starting college...) No, I'm a different person, I have more experience, but I'm also more secure in my personality.
We all go through changes in life and we will always change over the course of years (hopefully, change is a good thing).
The important thing is that YOU like who you are. You need to be at peace with yourself first. This might mean sometimes finding new friends with your new interests, or changing a major, or breaking ties with people/places that you have grown out of. But that's OK, and all part of the process. It doesn't really matter what other people think as long as you are happy with yourself and know that you can deal with whatever good things and/or bad things that come your way from being who you are.
*hugs*
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