(no subject)
It's only Friday and I already feel anxious and shitty.
Here's to SATS (and my review course has proven that this test is the most drawn out pile of bullshit ever conceived) tomorrow, an article for the school newspaper afterwards, and a fuckton of homework on Sunday, with nothing positive to look forward to.
Sometimes I wish I was a sociopath or had a split personality or something, just because it'd make me something other than mediocre and boring, though I really just want attention. Still, I wish I just wasn't a face in the crowd everywhere I go.
I find I can't deny my faults, or the things that are wrong with me. Even when I say I don't know what's wrong with me, it's usually a lie, and I just don't want to deal with facing all those things. Besides that, I know they're mostly my fault anyway, so it doesn't make me feel any better to acknowledge them.
I'd like something to look forward too, it's what keeps me going on days like today.
I guess I'll manage.
-Michael
Here's to SATS (and my review course has proven that this test is the most drawn out pile of bullshit ever conceived) tomorrow, an article for the school newspaper afterwards, and a fuckton of homework on Sunday, with nothing positive to look forward to.
Sometimes I wish I was a sociopath or had a split personality or something, just because it'd make me something other than mediocre and boring, though I really just want attention. Still, I wish I just wasn't a face in the crowd everywhere I go.
I find I can't deny my faults, or the things that are wrong with me. Even when I say I don't know what's wrong with me, it's usually a lie, and I just don't want to deal with facing all those things. Besides that, I know they're mostly my fault anyway, so it doesn't make me feel any better to acknowledge them.
I'd like something to look forward too, it's what keeps me going on days like today.
I guess I'll manage.
-Michael