Definitely not all smiles...
So, I rarely, RARELY feel like this, but I'm kind of depressed right now. Pretty much the fact that I've never had a boyfriend (or a real date, or a first kiss for that matter) is just really weighing on my mind tonight. You know, I've never been one to be jealous of someone else's relationship success, but tonight is just... different. I've been striving lately to let Jesus be all I need and find complete happiness in who He is (which should be insanely easy considering, how awesome He is), but sometimes I just don't feel that way.
And lately it just seems like EVERYONE is getting married or having babies. I'm 21 for crying out loud, too young for all of THAT! Yet, the said people are my age, sometimes even younger. Now I'm not ready for marriage, let alone kids (if I ever want those). But a little attention from someone of the opposite sex would be nice. I mean, the second I get a crush on someone these days, it's not too long before I find out he's attached. Not that I ever had a chance with said crushes anyway, but you get my point.
So, I guess I'll have myself a nice little sigh, a few journal entries, maybe a sweet snack or chick flick, and get back to living my life. After all, I'm a smart, strong, talented individual whose identity does not lie in the fact that I've never had a boyfriend. That doesn't define me. At least I know Who does. :)
And lately it just seems like EVERYONE is getting married or having babies. I'm 21 for crying out loud, too young for all of THAT! Yet, the said people are my age, sometimes even younger. Now I'm not ready for marriage, let alone kids (if I ever want those). But a little attention from someone of the opposite sex would be nice. I mean, the second I get a crush on someone these days, it's not too long before I find out he's attached. Not that I ever had a chance with said crushes anyway, but you get my point.
So, I guess I'll have myself a nice little sigh, a few journal entries, maybe a sweet snack or chick flick, and get back to living my life. After all, I'm a smart, strong, talented individual whose identity does not lie in the fact that I've never had a boyfriend. That doesn't define me. At least I know Who does. :)