Feelings ...
Here I sit, ready to start the work day. I've got so much going on in my life right now. I don't know whether I'm coming or going. My brain has turned to mush. I can't keep a train of thought for longer than a ... what was I saying?
I just feel so ... I don't know if it's melancholy or what. I'm not sad really but I'm not happy either. I guess maybe with the move coming up so soon and I haven't done half of what I should have done by now. I'm getting ready to leave my friends, my home, my work, the most amazing man that anyone could ask for, and enter into an unknown situation. No job, no friends, no man, no place to call my own. I'm scared but also excited. I guess I'm just a big old emotional rollercoaster.
Then to add to the whole situation, I've managed to remain a spoiler virgin all these months (it was difficult, let me tell you) and here I am but a short, short time away from being able to fulfill my total virginity and I clicked on an LJ cut and spoiled myself so badly that I feel like I need a shower. Damn. What's wrong with me? All that work for nothing. And I'm totally stressing over the fact that this is the last season. I know it's just a television show. I know my life isn't going to end when the show does. But is it wrong for me to feel a little like I'm losing something?
Anyway, enough of my feeling sorry for myself. Court's getting ready to start.
Sending crazy love to my friends on my flist! Love you all so much!
I just feel so ... I don't know if it's melancholy or what. I'm not sad really but I'm not happy either. I guess maybe with the move coming up so soon and I haven't done half of what I should have done by now. I'm getting ready to leave my friends, my home, my work, the most amazing man that anyone could ask for, and enter into an unknown situation. No job, no friends, no man, no place to call my own. I'm scared but also excited. I guess I'm just a big old emotional rollercoaster.
Then to add to the whole situation, I've managed to remain a spoiler virgin all these months (it was difficult, let me tell you) and here I am but a short, short time away from being able to fulfill my total virginity and I clicked on an LJ cut and spoiled myself so badly that I feel like I need a shower. Damn. What's wrong with me? All that work for nothing. And I'm totally stressing over the fact that this is the last season. I know it's just a television show. I know my life isn't going to end when the show does. But is it wrong for me to feel a little like I'm losing something?
Anyway, enough of my feeling sorry for myself. Court's getting ready to start.
Sending crazy love to my friends on my flist! Love you all so much!