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its 3:30 am and im sitting infront of my computer looking at old emails of when i was happy. those lovey emails from a special person who loves you. reading these again makes me think about myself, and one question keeps coming up after every email. "Have I not loved in so long that I forgot how to love?" i have become this asshole and havent let my emotions grab me and say "its time to love again." its funny how these emotions only come out late late at night, makes me glad i have this journal so i can look back and see how i am supposed to act. but during the day i am this conceited, arrogent, stubborn guy who acts like he doesnt need anyone, but im dying inside. many of my friends dont even know i feel this way, and most of my family doesnt know either, i am fighting a losing battle inside me, i feel like i am losing my compassion for others. Love is the best emotion and it can save people from just about anything. i wish i could be saved.