Stormy weather
A sudden change of wind
My heart is out of tune, out of beat, my hands are so sweaty
My vision is blurry as if the dried up tears, that just kept falling from my eyes in tiny rivulets, falling and falling, without sound, tightened my skin
Like I caved into myself, the package is whole, but the contents fell apart
Tried to sleep it away while the rest is taking pleasure in the last day of snow and snowboarding and I just couldn't, too sad
Don't know what to say when they're back, asking for an explanation
Outspoken words are lost, I'm too caved in
Like in summer, when the weather is so hot, so hot, and the sun was as bright as ever, and suddenly you feel that change of air, and it only needs 5 minutes and stormy clouds gather
And that's how I fell apart today
After 5 weeks of pure happiness, every day
My heart tripped and it's laying just that inch too far away to reach
And I'm happy that you replied, N., with a warm email, still up for playing shows together, and we'll do that
Between now and september
Somehow I feel calm in this darkness. The past weeks have been the best period in a whole while, and I haven't forgotten anything of that
"You know why she's one of my best friends? Because she's golden. She is. She's the sweetest person I know, and being around her makes me sweeter too. I'm learning that from her."
And I always forget how it feels when you suddenly start loving a friend, when someone becomes one of your best friends, and the feeling is mutual and it feels so safe.
(until the other suddenly backs out, blocking you out, leaving you clueless and becoming angry cause of your worried emails, but that's life, and this might not go that way)
We'll be driving back to Gent tomorrow, dropping Carl off by the airport and he hasn't booked a flight back to me yet.
Just thinking about empty beds makes my eyes blurry again. I love my blue-eyed Viking man.
I have Borderline on repeat
My heart is out of tune, out of beat, my hands are so sweaty
My vision is blurry as if the dried up tears, that just kept falling from my eyes in tiny rivulets, falling and falling, without sound, tightened my skin
Like I caved into myself, the package is whole, but the contents fell apart
Tried to sleep it away while the rest is taking pleasure in the last day of snow and snowboarding and I just couldn't, too sad
Don't know what to say when they're back, asking for an explanation
Outspoken words are lost, I'm too caved in
Like in summer, when the weather is so hot, so hot, and the sun was as bright as ever, and suddenly you feel that change of air, and it only needs 5 minutes and stormy clouds gather
And that's how I fell apart today
After 5 weeks of pure happiness, every day
My heart tripped and it's laying just that inch too far away to reach
And I'm happy that you replied, N., with a warm email, still up for playing shows together, and we'll do that
Between now and september
Somehow I feel calm in this darkness. The past weeks have been the best period in a whole while, and I haven't forgotten anything of that
"You know why she's one of my best friends? Because she's golden. She is. She's the sweetest person I know, and being around her makes me sweeter too. I'm learning that from her."
And I always forget how it feels when you suddenly start loving a friend, when someone becomes one of your best friends, and the feeling is mutual and it feels so safe.
(until the other suddenly backs out, blocking you out, leaving you clueless and becoming angry cause of your worried emails, but that's life, and this might not go that way)
We'll be driving back to Gent tomorrow, dropping Carl off by the airport and he hasn't booked a flight back to me yet.
Just thinking about empty beds makes my eyes blurry again. I love my blue-eyed Viking man.
I have Borderline on repeat
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