Find myself feeling...
I find myself feeling hopelessly ugly again. One picture is all it takes. One picture of one ridiculously beautiful, younger woman with a perfect face, big doe-eyes, and long, straight, fire-engine red hair.
One picture that a married friend of mine "liked" on Facebook, and all I could think about was how bad his wife would feel to see it... or how bad I would feel if my husband liked that, too. (And I know he would, in his mind. He just isn't tacky enough to "like" it on a public website.)
I have so many talents and things to be proud of; yet I am ashamed. I'm not physically beautiful enough, and I can't sing well enough. It makes all of my other qualities seem dusty and gray.
I would be proud of myself if I had those qualities. Physical beauty is what is admired in a woman most, no matter what ANYONE says. No man goes around saying, "Wow, I love the way you laugh at the LOL cats, that's so sexy." Personality and intellect will always be second best to physical beauty, always!!!
And how sad, considering all the things I AM good at... but they aren't good enough for me. I'd trade in more than half of my good qualities for beauty and musical talent. I'm not good enough for anybody, not even myself!!!
One picture that a married friend of mine "liked" on Facebook, and all I could think about was how bad his wife would feel to see it... or how bad I would feel if my husband liked that, too. (And I know he would, in his mind. He just isn't tacky enough to "like" it on a public website.)
I have so many talents and things to be proud of; yet I am ashamed. I'm not physically beautiful enough, and I can't sing well enough. It makes all of my other qualities seem dusty and gray.
I would be proud of myself if I had those qualities. Physical beauty is what is admired in a woman most, no matter what ANYONE says. No man goes around saying, "Wow, I love the way you laugh at the LOL cats, that's so sexy." Personality and intellect will always be second best to physical beauty, always!!!
And how sad, considering all the things I AM good at... but they aren't good enough for me. I'd trade in more than half of my good qualities for beauty and musical talent. I'm not good enough for anybody, not even myself!!!