(no subject)
What I was isn't what I am.
I'd change back, but I don't know if I can.
I'm sorry I can't please everybody. If I could, I would, but it seems like I am always letting someone down. Maybe I am blind, but I don't see how I am at fault. And I have thought about it over and over and over and there is really nothing I have done wrong. Maybe we are just eternally destined to be in disagreement. I want to fix things and have them be like they should be. But maybe that's the problem. Maybe we are trying to fix things to be a certain way, when they shouldn't be that way at all. Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's you. It could be the both of us. I'm sorry I can't please everybody. I really am. And I'm sorry there's no way to make it up to you, but will you just try to see things from my eyes every once in a while. Tell me what I'm supposed to do.. how I'm supposed to act.. what I'm supposed to say, how I'm supposed to say it, and how to know the right time. Tell me why I shouldn't think you are selfish and unfair. That's how I feel right now. You probably won't understand that, since you haven't understood anything else I've felt. But you aren't in my position. Just try to walk it in my shoes. For just one day. I want to show you what I mean. I want to fix it all. But nothing is going to happen until we talk about it. I'm sorry I can't please everybody.