Never will
Funny how many times I read LJ and get upset. I should say I USED to get upset. I got upset at a lot of the phony asskissing I see but that's ok. The reason it's ok is that the people doing all that will never, EVER have a moment like one of the many I've had in my life and all my friends have had too.
They've never:
Seen snow flakes on a guy's eyelids and eyelashes while the the snow came down in February in New York in the early eighties, and say to yourself that that moment will never come again so you need to remember it.
Watch another guy from the same band, (I don't want to say the band's name since anyone reading this who doesn't know me might think I'm lying and I am most definitely not lying), jumping around like a kid, then stops to pose for a picture with the steam from a vent all around him in the dead of winter. The smoke from the vent mixed with the smoke coming out of his mouth and went right up to the sky.
Watched someone you had fallen in love with get on a bus and leave and then not see them again for 23 years. You know what an ocean between you would do to you then? Not just make you make noises, but make you cry so much you could fill the damn ocean over all that time!
There are so many moments like that in my life. Moments when I could have pulled stars down from the sky I was so happy. Days and nights spent on the beach, the days playing in soft sand and dipping my toes into the ocean or when I was older body surfing in the rush of a wave. The wave enveloping me and I wasn't even afraid! The nights spent under the stars looking out over the curve of the earth that you knew was there and couldn't see. There were beaches then were you could have a bonfire and roast hotdogs and play guitar and sing.
It might sound selfish of me to write about moments like this but no one has to read this if they don't want to. I don't think too many people read this anyway and that's not a cry for anyone to start reading it. This is for me.
I wish I could say I feel sorry for all those who have no life but I don't. They get too much enjoyment when they're lording it over everyone else for me to feel sorry for them.
They've never:
Seen snow flakes on a guy's eyelids and eyelashes while the the snow came down in February in New York in the early eighties, and say to yourself that that moment will never come again so you need to remember it.
Watch another guy from the same band, (I don't want to say the band's name since anyone reading this who doesn't know me might think I'm lying and I am most definitely not lying), jumping around like a kid, then stops to pose for a picture with the steam from a vent all around him in the dead of winter. The smoke from the vent mixed with the smoke coming out of his mouth and went right up to the sky.
Watched someone you had fallen in love with get on a bus and leave and then not see them again for 23 years. You know what an ocean between you would do to you then? Not just make you make noises, but make you cry so much you could fill the damn ocean over all that time!
There are so many moments like that in my life. Moments when I could have pulled stars down from the sky I was so happy. Days and nights spent on the beach, the days playing in soft sand and dipping my toes into the ocean or when I was older body surfing in the rush of a wave. The wave enveloping me and I wasn't even afraid! The nights spent under the stars looking out over the curve of the earth that you knew was there and couldn't see. There were beaches then were you could have a bonfire and roast hotdogs and play guitar and sing.
It might sound selfish of me to write about moments like this but no one has to read this if they don't want to. I don't think too many people read this anyway and that's not a cry for anyone to start reading it. This is for me.
I wish I could say I feel sorry for all those who have no life but I don't. They get too much enjoyment when they're lording it over everyone else for me to feel sorry for them.