Enough is Enough!
God I am so sick of random hook ups! I've had enough of them...they're driving me insane and all they ever bring is more drama to my life. I don't want a relationship. All I want is for someone to stick around for longer than a week in my life. After growing up never getting close to anyone, I've finally been able to open up a lot more to those around me. Yea i know i've opened up to some of you, but think about it...can any of you honestly say you know me? You know what makes me tick, what makes my truly happy, sad, or angry? I know for a fact that I can't say that about anyone of you. And that makes me incredibly sad. I grew so used to moving all the time and never sticking around long enough to get to know anyone, but I've been here in this city for almost 8 years now and still don't know what happened I am craving a connection with someone. Someone who is going to ask me those tough questions and who won't shy away from me when i want to know about your life.
Sex is great and can be lots of fun...but sex with out any emotional connection is pointless...absolutely pointless. The pleasure doesn't matter beccause it can't be really felt with out the emotion. It leaves you feeling empty inside...and that's how I feel. Empty.
Im trying to fill my life with things that make me happy...its hard when you're broke and in debt, but im trying. I want to start painting again. I used to paint every night...still have some of the art work, but most of it was burned. I've tried to start rock climbing but REI isn't that great, and the person who said they'd teach me turned out to be a wolf in sheep's clothing. Not that i couldn't teach myself, but something like that is a lot more fun with another person.
That's really all i've got right now....
Sex is great and can be lots of fun...but sex with out any emotional connection is pointless...absolutely pointless. The pleasure doesn't matter beccause it can't be really felt with out the emotion. It leaves you feeling empty inside...and that's how I feel. Empty.
Im trying to fill my life with things that make me happy...its hard when you're broke and in debt, but im trying. I want to start painting again. I used to paint every night...still have some of the art work, but most of it was burned. I've tried to start rock climbing but REI isn't that great, and the person who said they'd teach me turned out to be a wolf in sheep's clothing. Not that i couldn't teach myself, but something like that is a lot more fun with another person.
That's really all i've got right now....