Despair
So, I did not end up trying to get drunk last night, but only because my internet went down and I couldn't get the results, which was plenty frustrating on its own. I know that mathematically Obama will almost certainly keep his lead, but I'm much less confident that Hillary won't find a way to steal the nomination somehow, through superdelegates, MI and FL, or something to that effect. And with the media in her corner, she'll almost certainly have the cover to get away with it. Even if she doesn't, the party is tearing itself apart, and the only one to benefit is McCain. I'm half convinced that Hillary is just staying in to help McCain at this point, so he can beat Obama and she can run in 2012. I tried to point out to my mother some of the scummy tricks that Hillary has been pulling lately, and she laughed at me. Laughed at me! It makes me want to scream.
My brain has been slipping back and forth between politics and Mary all day. It really has been a hell of a one-two punch. I honestly wonder if there's a girl on the planet who would have me other than for economic reasons. Logic suggests that there must be. I honestly think I have a lot to offer, yet I can't seem to find anyone who'll give be a second glance. I'm going to be spending the rest of my life watching my country go down the drain, and without even the comfort of falling asleep in a loved one's arms to console me. I feel so alone right now, alone and bone-tired. I can't see a silver lining anywhere in the world. Hopes are always dashed; the bad guys always win in the end. What's the point?
My brain has been slipping back and forth between politics and Mary all day. It really has been a hell of a one-two punch. I honestly wonder if there's a girl on the planet who would have me other than for economic reasons. Logic suggests that there must be. I honestly think I have a lot to offer, yet I can't seem to find anyone who'll give be a second glance. I'm going to be spending the rest of my life watching my country go down the drain, and without even the comfort of falling asleep in a loved one's arms to console me. I feel so alone right now, alone and bone-tired. I can't see a silver lining anywhere in the world. Hopes are always dashed; the bad guys always win in the end. What's the point?