Jan 26, 2005 19:15
allright everyone i did it, i talked to jon,it was a really really hard thing to do but i knew i had too...here it is...
jon-hey whats up??
ME-nothing much just got off the phone with moll..you?
JON-oh really, thats cool, um not much here, got home from practice not too long ago
ME-thats cool
JON-ya i guess, how was your day?
ME-fine...jon can i ask you sumthing?
JON-um ya sure
ME-well...what do you think about us right now?
JON-um its ok, i really like you and want to know you even more
ME-ok..well im such a chicken for doing this over the internet but...ok...well i do like you and everything but i dont know, like you have just been awsome, and i have so muhc fun when im with you and i love talking to you..its just i dont know, i dont think i can be in a relationship anymore...
JON-how come?
ME-i dont know how to explain...i know we werent going out, but you were like the perfect boyfriend, but im mean there is reason why i said no when u asked me out, it just i never wanted to hurt you and its just so much to think about, i dont know i just dont really know anymore
JON-ok well if you ever change your mind, or want to have a relationship, just ask. you dont have to worry about anything with me abby, you can be cool and don’t think so much, we tend to psych ourselves out sometimes. i really had a ton of fun with you too, i loved every minute of it. maybe sometime we can be something again
ME-i loved it all too..and dont think any of this is because of you, because you have been awsome i just need to figure things out for me i guess...but i dont want this to mean we cant talk or hang out, cuz i have so much fun with you...yea itll be different, but i think friends is what i need righ tnoe
JON-ya thats fine, i hope you can figure everything out and come to a conclusion or w/e and ya it'll be wierd cause i know ill have strong feelings for you but that fun is better than not hangin out and not having fun.......i might still call ya every once and a while cause i like never see you otherwise
ME-definitly, thanks for being so cool about this
but jon, dont sit and wait for me, cuz the last thing i wanna do is disapoint you
JON-ya i have to be, i dunno, its really hard but i cant get too worked up cause i know i need to stay calm and w/e....ill try not to but i will like you abbs ;), of course ya never know either, maybe someday
ME-ya...sorry again for the whole internet thing, but i just dont think i could have stayed composed on the phone or anything
JON-i spose, it is pretty tough, things like that, good and bad are hard
ME-ye
JON-well im out, ill talk to you later, if ya need a ride to danceline tomorrow, i can hook you up
ME-bye
COMMENTS ARE WELCOME...DID I DO THE RIGHT THING????