Long time no be here
Well peeps thats me single once again, why the hell do I always always chose the wrong blokes, or do they infact chose me? I did struggle with the rejection thing and the fact he wants to 'leave his options' open. But after a bbq with a few friends and a giggle I woke up this morning with no knot in my stomach and realised that life is too short to spend anytime dwelling on what could have been. Don't get me wrong, I will miss him like crazy, he was a friend I could talk to as well, I will miss the sex because it felt like it meant something, (something I've not really had before, sex was sex) but this was infact 'making love'. From today and from now on, it's onwards and upwards. Trust has always been a big issue with me due to ex's behaviour, it's not getting better either, I can honestly say it's getting worse and worse. Before I can move on I think I need to go talk to someone, sort my issues out before I can move on properly. Something I know I should have done long ago.