Dear Ben Cross (Letter #18)
Dear Ben
Hope you are well. I heard that your daughter and girlfriend (wife?) were coming to see you. I'm pleased for you.
Right now I'm sitting in the apartment alone watching the X-files. I came home from a bbq with friends. I've known the person for years kind of. When I first got to Calgary I met her and her then husband and hung out with them. Her husband was....how shall I say...an interesting individual and I kind of left their acquaintance because he was very creepy. At any rate I went to her new apartment which is very nice. She's seeing a lovely Englishman.
I feel kind of lonely today. I know, that's among "stuff people don't want to hear." But this is my journal and I'll post it if I like. I really wish I had someone here just to be around. Oh woe is me I guess. There's naught to be done and I will soldier through like I always do. I get so tired of having to plug through alone but what choice do I have?
I felt really lazy today and didn't clean the house. Which means I'll have to get up early tomorrow. I have guests coming tomorrow for brunch and I cheated on dinner. Normally I would make something but instead I bought something. *sigh* Normally I'm not that lazy but I don't have it in me today.
On Friday my sister was furiously texting me regarding my mother. I actually played the diplomat this time round. I suggested that all three of us (as in myself, my mom and sister) need better communication skills but, predictably, that went down like a lead balloon. I honestly feel we need better skills in that area as we don't have great communication but I know that chances are that it won't happen. Oh well, you can't blame me for suggesting such a new concept to the strained dynamic.
I had called my mom Thursday and she was fine. I find if you listen to what my mom says and have some empathy it goes a long way. And it sister was going on about something and didn't bother explaining properly and so there was a lot of confusion. I knew what my mom was talking about and I can only guess that my sister got snotty as she does and probably got confrontational, which she does. My sister can be very vicious when she's mildly irritated. She claims that my mom can't handle stress but I can tell you, neither can my sister. I can take stress but I have to admit I get to a point where I lose it. But I do my best not to and I usually try to avoid situations or just leave before that happens. At any rate, I'm not a saint but I do try to not be a bitch. Doesn't always work, but I try.
Anyway, I'm tired and I think I'll try to get some sleep.
Night and again, I'm glad your family is coming to visit you.
Gail
Hope you are well. I heard that your daughter and girlfriend (wife?) were coming to see you. I'm pleased for you.
Right now I'm sitting in the apartment alone watching the X-files. I came home from a bbq with friends. I've known the person for years kind of. When I first got to Calgary I met her and her then husband and hung out with them. Her husband was....how shall I say...an interesting individual and I kind of left their acquaintance because he was very creepy. At any rate I went to her new apartment which is very nice. She's seeing a lovely Englishman.
I feel kind of lonely today. I know, that's among "stuff people don't want to hear." But this is my journal and I'll post it if I like. I really wish I had someone here just to be around. Oh woe is me I guess. There's naught to be done and I will soldier through like I always do. I get so tired of having to plug through alone but what choice do I have?
I felt really lazy today and didn't clean the house. Which means I'll have to get up early tomorrow. I have guests coming tomorrow for brunch and I cheated on dinner. Normally I would make something but instead I bought something. *sigh* Normally I'm not that lazy but I don't have it in me today.
On Friday my sister was furiously texting me regarding my mother. I actually played the diplomat this time round. I suggested that all three of us (as in myself, my mom and sister) need better communication skills but, predictably, that went down like a lead balloon. I honestly feel we need better skills in that area as we don't have great communication but I know that chances are that it won't happen. Oh well, you can't blame me for suggesting such a new concept to the strained dynamic.
I had called my mom Thursday and she was fine. I find if you listen to what my mom says and have some empathy it goes a long way. And it sister was going on about something and didn't bother explaining properly and so there was a lot of confusion. I knew what my mom was talking about and I can only guess that my sister got snotty as she does and probably got confrontational, which she does. My sister can be very vicious when she's mildly irritated. She claims that my mom can't handle stress but I can tell you, neither can my sister. I can take stress but I have to admit I get to a point where I lose it. But I do my best not to and I usually try to avoid situations or just leave before that happens. At any rate, I'm not a saint but I do try to not be a bitch. Doesn't always work, but I try.
Anyway, I'm tired and I think I'll try to get some sleep.
Night and again, I'm glad your family is coming to visit you.
Gail