Dear Ben Cross (Letter #13)
This was done Saturday but I didn't upload it until today. It seems if I copy and paste from my IPad the paragraphs go a little wonky.
2013 05 25
Dear Ben
Hoping your day going well! It seems you’ve been doing a bit of travelling. It seems you do a lot of it, which is good. I wish I could do as much.
Today, as I tweeted you, is Towel Day which honours Douglas Adams. Yes, I took a towel with me to brunch. All in good fun! I’m sure a few people thought I was an idiot. But to Hades with them! Life is short!
My uncle’s funeral isn’t until the 15th of June now. Theoretically. Social services is dealing with the funeral arrangements so he won’t be buried until they figure it out. I know that it sounds harsh. While I have a job that lets me do a few things, I simply don’t have thousands of dollars at my disposal. If I did, I would absolutely pay for everything in regards to it. I just don’t have it. And so my mom and I await the government’s decision on what they plan on doing. I feel bad about it but what am I to do?
Just to be clear, I am not poor. I just can’t do that much of a strain on my finances.
At any rate, the memorial will be later than a normal one will be. A person in my family seems to question about holding one, but I feel that everyone deserves a remembrance of his or her passing. And I am insistent on having one. Not that this person needed pushing. I think he/she knows that it is the right thing to do. I think the monetary cost impedes their willingness. I can understand this. Fortunately we can have a hall for free as per the facility in where he lived. Thank God! That takes a huge cost out of it. At any rate that’s where that is.
I am feeling bad that I’m not feeling worse at his passing. I was devastated when my father died. I was seriously messed up for a very long time after that. Not messed up as in suicidal. Dad a) wouldn’t have liked that at all and b) I’m just not like that. But I did suffer immensely. With my uncle I’m very sad about it but I can function, go to work, etc. I think part of it is that I believe in living and the best way to honour someone is to continue to. Makes no sense I suppose but that’s the way I have been after Dad. Life is far too short I am finding.
Having said all that about finances, I did some silly things this pay. First, I bought some miniatures for my projects. I have not done a lot on my Cemetery Project or the Calgary By Night Project. Miniatures are expensive (especially for the Artemis character room) and I have done other things with my money since I started. But I find a renewed interest and urgency and want to get it done. Having said that, I suspect it will be years until the Chantry is completely created. And I still don’t know where the Hades I’d put it. But it will be GLORIOUS once it Is completed.
I also bought into the Mind’s Eye Theatre: Vampire The Masquerade Kickstarter. You probably know nothing about LARP (Live Action Roleplaying).
It’s kind of like improvisational acting. Or a monthly serial program with no actual sets but a lot of imaginative people getting together and creating a brilliant drama. I feel we’re all frustrated actors who need to get our monthly fix of acting every month. Make no mistake, if we’re having a good night at game, some people can do Oscar worthy performances. I’ve seen it. In fact, after every game we get together at a restaurant to make sure we all remember that we’re not the nasty backbiting, cruel and heartless beings that we play.
We make up our own characters, bring our own props and backstories. There’s good stuff flying around with everyone’s characters. We’re our own costumers, writers, prop masters, PA’s, and whatever other role that needs filled. That’s how awesome we LARPers are.
In other news, I am starting another dialect for a character I am going to play in Edmonton. I’m thinking Scottish. You claimed to be Irish in a tweet you replied to me and I was tempted to go with an Irish accent. But I’ve decided to go with Scottish. Irish next time.
I am also starting singing lessons. That should be an adventure. Why am I doing all this stuff? Because way back when, when I was significantly younger, I had always been discouraged by others to try new things. Now a days I have decided to say to HADES with everyone else and just try it. If I fail, disappointing, if I succeed it will be awesome. Once must try before one knows!
I really need to get my computer fixed as I am here at work on a day off to type this. I haven’t written a lot because of the computer being down, but that may be a good thing anyway. At any rate something has to be done about it.
For now I have to go to the Farmer’s Market and then get ready for game since the memorial won’t be this weekend. Have a good one!
Gail