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i have been feeling so incredibly shitty ever since thursday or friday. i miss my jenny. she is all taken up with tom now and i never get to spend any time with her and it is very sad. i lay in bed crying on and off for hours and hours the day before yesterday. first i was thinking about myself and where i am in my life or am not and how empty and directionless everything feels and i don't know what the fuck i'm doing with myself. then i started to think about j'aime and how much i miss her and where everything went horribly wrong and how sad that is. then i went on to think about jenny and how sad i am that i never get to spend alone time with her anymore and how sad that is and i was just extremely sad for the first half of the day. so much sadness. ahhhgg. no more.