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... then she said to me "have you ever been late getting to me?" and I said with a sigh, barely audible, "only once". and it began a conversation that needed to be had for oh, the last year or so. and she said she was with her partner now, and did I want her to leave her partner for me? and I said "no it's not that, it's just something I've needed to say for a long time" and she said something like "wow, you've been holding all of that in your uterus for a year?" and I thought it was wierd that she said I was holding it there, rather than in my stomach or heart or something like that. I still don't understand that part. I just needed to tell her, to talk about it, to let her know... I'm not sure really. It was just neccessary, it was time for her to know what I think maybe we both knew all along but chose not to acknowledge for some odd reason. I think I knew all along how she felt about me, and I knew that she made me feel like no one else ever had, yet I didn't know what to do about it. I had never felt that way before, so I just ended up being confused and uncertain and not knowing which way was up. So anyways, it was really good to have that conversation and get it all out in the open...Too bad it was only a dream.