I Cry For...
There are 2 things that I cry for,
I cry for my family,
I cry for my friends.
I cry for my dad,
I cry for my mum,
But I never make them happy.
I cry for my only sister,
I cry for my 4 strong brothers,
But I never show them a true big sister.
I cry for my Friends,
Saying "I care about you",
"I want to know you better",
But I never really care at all.
I cry for my family,
But I never make them proud of me.
I cry for my friends,
but I never be close to them.
I cry for my family,
But we seems far away.
I cry for my friends,
But they are far away!
You may be with your family,
You may be with your friends,
But you always alone in this world.
I want somebody to talk too,
When I'm sad,
or just a simple conversation.
When I want those,
I realized, I don't have any.
I think deeply,
Who do I cry for?
I cry for simple things,
I cry for stupid things,
I cry for small things,
Most of all,
I cry for myself.
I see things from my eyes,
what misfortune hits me.
I blame others for not caring,
I blame for their careless,
I blame for everything.
Then I realized,
I'm not crying for my family,
I'm crying for my friends,
I cry for myself,
I cry for everything.
I cry, I cry, I cry & I cry.
For what I cry for?
Sorry. After a long time without posting, suddenly i appeared with this sad/sorrow what-ever-you-call. Maybe I miss my family so much that I have a horrible homesick. I can go home if there is a week holiday or more. I know, I'm such a crybaby who cannot be away from her family like others did too but sorry for being selfish about this. Friends who added me Or I added you, sorry for not being a good one for you. I'm just not good in long-distance relationship. It seems that I don't mean to have friends. I have a roommate but she doesn't stay in the hostel. My almost close friends want to change course. All the ppl I knew, were placed in another building next to my building. There was one person I met when I just amazed by the sky & I told about my friends. She said that "It is like that you always being out of the group." Then it make me realized that this also happened during my school times. I make new friends but none of them wanna be close to me. I wonder. Hehehehe... I guess It can't be help, right? But dun worry, I will change the fate! bcoz I always Keep the Faith & just what KAT-TUN said, Don't U Ever Stop! All, plez enjoy your life just what I'm trying to do! "GROUP HUGS!"
XDDD
PS: This is the 1st time I'm in a hostel! I'm so excited!!! I never be in a hostel b4~ >__<"
The room is soo big! I have my own table, table lamp, closet & my own bed! Though I still cannot use in sleeping in that "thick" bed. Hehehe...
PS2: JunnO kawaii!!! (^___^)v
PS3: Special Thanks to everyone especially You know who you are~ THANK YOU!!!
PS4: How is the what-ever-you-call? Nice? Then I can be a song writer too like KAT-TUN! What a high dream ne?? KAT-TUN why so much influence on me? That is why I LOVE KAT-TUN FOREVER!!!