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Hm, what is there to say... The perfection of my life was short-lived, although thigns are still good. Just everything was going flawlessly over the past few months, and now little things here and there are starting to add up, but I can deal with that. It's just, people have seem to forgotten one very important thing. Which is: You DO NOT FUCK with someone that doesn't value their own life. I mean, yeah, I'm just so godamn tired of being so fucking reasonable. There was a time when you mouthed off to me, you got punched in the face. You threatened me or someone I care about, you got fucked up bad. People (like Caylee for instance among many others) have seen this first-hand. I never took any fucking shit from anyone, no matter how big or small they happened to be. Now I just don't know what I am. Through intelligence and forethought I'm completely different. Which is good I suppose in the long run. But it's come to a point now, and it's just too much. Basically, I'm so sick and tired of people being assholes and getting away with it and I have to accept it. I never used to and I'm not going to anymore. Fuck reason. I mean, I don't want to throw my life away over meaningless bullshit, but if it'll bring relief of any sort then I'll gladly do it. I mean, I need to think things over, but that's exactly the problem. I think too much now. It's a good thing perhaps but it sure doesn't make me feel good at all. I'm fed up. So, my next move will probably be pretty irrational.
But other than that problem, things are ok. I mean, don't mistake what I've said, it's not that I can't do something about it, or am afraid to, heh. If you know me at all you know 'I don't care' is a motto I've lived my life by. It's just now I have a reason to care, and I tend to think to much and be so disgustingly reasonable. And sometimes in life reason isn't needed. So the old me will be returning. But meh, like anyone gives a fuck anyways. Just stay on my good side and the people that have brought this about I -am- coming for you. And well, hopefully whatever I choose to do, I can hold out till october, cause I bought tickets to the Soilwork concert at the Opera House. So that's good I guess. Anyways, just wanted to rant. And yeh my health hasn't been to good other over the past little while either, and that's definately contributing to these feelings. Life is about accepting things and not always (or ever) getting what you want, but a man can only take so much. Cheers.
But other than that problem, things are ok. I mean, don't mistake what I've said, it's not that I can't do something about it, or am afraid to, heh. If you know me at all you know 'I don't care' is a motto I've lived my life by. It's just now I have a reason to care, and I tend to think to much and be so disgustingly reasonable. And sometimes in life reason isn't needed. So the old me will be returning. But meh, like anyone gives a fuck anyways. Just stay on my good side and the people that have brought this about I -am- coming for you. And well, hopefully whatever I choose to do, I can hold out till october, cause I bought tickets to the Soilwork concert at the Opera House. So that's good I guess. Anyways, just wanted to rant. And yeh my health hasn't been to good other over the past little while either, and that's definately contributing to these feelings. Life is about accepting things and not always (or ever) getting what you want, but a man can only take so much. Cheers.