Crazy Train
Holy Christ, through all of the pointless fighting I don't know exactly how it's come to this... but my parents are on the verge of kicking me out, which is entirely fine with me because I've wanted to leave for so long. The only thing that ever stopped me before was the fact that I have no job, hence no money..... but tomorrow I'm going to go to guidance and work something out.
I'd like very much just leave and get an apartment a few months down the line with a roomate but I do not feel that it is all that realistic of a goal.
So that has me contemplating going into rehab. Simply because I want some time alone to myself... Scratch that.. I NEED some time alone. The downside to that option is I'm quite sure I'll be branded "an addict" for the rest of my natural born life. So I still have to make a decision. An alternative to that I suppose is getting into some sort of government program. I have no clue what to do, but again, I'll work something out. I hate the system so much, it helps no one.
I'm just sick of this house, the people in it, and the attitudes they all have. It's criminally sickening.. I just want to.... leave it all behind. One way or another I'm gone before Christmas, that's something I really would like for the holidays..
I also feel like not attending school anymore, not like I ever did in the first place. It's socially pointless for me, and my marks are 70-79% so I can kiss any scholarship dreams I may had conceived good-bye, so I'd might as well drop out. But myeh, I have to talk to someone first before I make any rash decisions. I just hope I get some good advice.
I'd like very much just leave and get an apartment a few months down the line with a roomate but I do not feel that it is all that realistic of a goal.
So that has me contemplating going into rehab. Simply because I want some time alone to myself... Scratch that.. I NEED some time alone. The downside to that option is I'm quite sure I'll be branded "an addict" for the rest of my natural born life. So I still have to make a decision. An alternative to that I suppose is getting into some sort of government program. I have no clue what to do, but again, I'll work something out. I hate the system so much, it helps no one.
I'm just sick of this house, the people in it, and the attitudes they all have. It's criminally sickening.. I just want to.... leave it all behind. One way or another I'm gone before Christmas, that's something I really would like for the holidays..
I also feel like not attending school anymore, not like I ever did in the first place. It's socially pointless for me, and my marks are 70-79% so I can kiss any scholarship dreams I may had conceived good-bye, so I'd might as well drop out. But myeh, I have to talk to someone first before I make any rash decisions. I just hope I get some good advice.