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Hi everybody. Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas. Or winter holiday of your choosing. I say "Merry Christmas" for the most part, but you can change it to "Happy Holidays" or "Seasons Greetings" if you choose. I don't care.
I've been feeling kind of sad and lonely this week. Dan is visiting his mom and I'll be in Kentucky over New Year's so we won't be spending either of the holidays together. I also really miss my brother this year. I must be an adult since I actually miss my sibling. I keep thinking about Jacob, and I start feeling really sad about him being in Iraq. It really isn't the same. We're completely different, but I guess when you're used to always spending Christmas with your whole family, stinky younger brother included, it just doesn't feel right when they aren't there. I hope his Christmas is okay. And that he likes his gifts. Hope he got them.
Anyway, despite my melancholy, going to church this evening seemed to help. I wasn't really looking forward to going because I was afraid I would get really upset during the service, as little things seem to set me off the past couple of days, but it actually did make me feel better. I enjoy my little country church's Christmas Eve service. I often have issues with religion, but Christmas Eve service is different. Even if I don't really like what people are saying or teaching, I can at least look around at all the pretty lights and concentrate on that. Singing "Silent Night" in the dark with just our candles is one of the highlights for me. And watching all of the cute little kids, of course!
Well, I hope this entry didn't depress anyone. That wasn't my intention. I just don't feel like I can share these sentiments with anyone near me. I really do wish all of you Merry Christmas and hope it's absolutely wonderful!
I've been feeling kind of sad and lonely this week. Dan is visiting his mom and I'll be in Kentucky over New Year's so we won't be spending either of the holidays together. I also really miss my brother this year. I must be an adult since I actually miss my sibling. I keep thinking about Jacob, and I start feeling really sad about him being in Iraq. It really isn't the same. We're completely different, but I guess when you're used to always spending Christmas with your whole family, stinky younger brother included, it just doesn't feel right when they aren't there. I hope his Christmas is okay. And that he likes his gifts. Hope he got them.
Anyway, despite my melancholy, going to church this evening seemed to help. I wasn't really looking forward to going because I was afraid I would get really upset during the service, as little things seem to set me off the past couple of days, but it actually did make me feel better. I enjoy my little country church's Christmas Eve service. I often have issues with religion, but Christmas Eve service is different. Even if I don't really like what people are saying or teaching, I can at least look around at all the pretty lights and concentrate on that. Singing "Silent Night" in the dark with just our candles is one of the highlights for me. And watching all of the cute little kids, of course!
Well, I hope this entry didn't depress anyone. That wasn't my intention. I just don't feel like I can share these sentiments with anyone near me. I really do wish all of you Merry Christmas and hope it's absolutely wonderful!