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I really can't decide how I feel. I just cannot motivate myself to study or do any sort of work. I'm finding myself sitting in front of the computer, waiting for something to happen to me, someone to call me, and in the meantime spending my time doing... stuff. I'm tired. I wish life weren't so darn confusing.
Everyone thinks they're more mysterious than they really are. Myself included. Just the fact that I posted the above paragraph goes to show that. The real truth is I'm sleep deprived, like the rest of the world, but I keep making up other reasons that I feel emotionally imbalanced. I keep telling myself that if there is some REASON I can't make myself do anything, then maybe it'll be justified. Maybe I can justify the fact that I'm starting to feel unattached from my family and friends. Maybe I can justify the fact that I'm not keeping up my relationships with people. Maybe I can justify the fact that I get angry at people for nothing. But I can't. I just lack the will to make myself do the things I should. Like go to bed early. Stop watching the game and do my homework. Stop being irritated at someone for being themselves. Stop judging others for the little things. Put effort into what I'm supposed to. STUDY FOR THE FREAKING AP TESTS!!!
And it will end as it always does, despite this random train of thought.
Bah humbug.
I'm going to go read.
Everyone thinks they're more mysterious than they really are.
Everyone thinks they're more mysterious than they really are. Myself included. Just the fact that I posted the above paragraph goes to show that. The real truth is I'm sleep deprived, like the rest of the world, but I keep making up other reasons that I feel emotionally imbalanced. I keep telling myself that if there is some REASON I can't make myself do anything, then maybe it'll be justified. Maybe I can justify the fact that I'm starting to feel unattached from my family and friends. Maybe I can justify the fact that I'm not keeping up my relationships with people. Maybe I can justify the fact that I get angry at people for nothing. But I can't. I just lack the will to make myself do the things I should. Like go to bed early. Stop watching the game and do my homework. Stop being irritated at someone for being themselves. Stop judging others for the little things. Put effort into what I'm supposed to. STUDY FOR THE FREAKING AP TESTS!!!
And it will end as it always does, despite this random train of thought.
Bah humbug.
I'm going to go read.
Everyone thinks they're more mysterious than they really are.