Vent
Blaghhhhh... I wonder if anyone still reads this.
Anyway. I wish I had a male, bisexual friend. It's difficult, sometimes, for me to be in a relationship with a woman about whom I feel so strongly, yet I still desire men. Dana and I talk about it, and she tells me I'm a wonderful boyfriend, and I say I'm so-so, and inside I feel bad about how I flirt with men, and how I think about how nice it would be to lay with a man when I'm in bed with her. I tell her that I'm sorry I'm bisexual, and she doesn't "forgive" me, because it's not an offense.
Right now, I am speaking to a young man, who is so amazing, and if things beyond our control hadn't happened the way they had, I could be in love with him, in a relationship with him. It tears me up a little. It makes me wish I were two people. A gay man for him, and a straight woman for her.
I just don't really know.
Anyway. I wish I had a male, bisexual friend. It's difficult, sometimes, for me to be in a relationship with a woman about whom I feel so strongly, yet I still desire men. Dana and I talk about it, and she tells me I'm a wonderful boyfriend, and I say I'm so-so, and inside I feel bad about how I flirt with men, and how I think about how nice it would be to lay with a man when I'm in bed with her. I tell her that I'm sorry I'm bisexual, and she doesn't "forgive" me, because it's not an offense.
Right now, I am speaking to a young man, who is so amazing, and if things beyond our control hadn't happened the way they had, I could be in love with him, in a relationship with him. It tears me up a little. It makes me wish I were two people. A gay man for him, and a straight woman for her.
I just don't really know.