apathy...
last night i got trashed over a beer and a half. i took pills right before, and it fucked me up bad. so wow. anywho. i've changed to a polar opposite. im no longer an open book, nor do i care. whoops! looks like everyone sucks, i dont get along with hardly anybody, unless you are under the influence of 3+ drugs simultaneously. i guess ive refused to get a prescription for my depression, and instead try to kill it with cigarettes and alcohol? well i guess it used to be lying around doing nothing, sleeping the days away. but now its just school and 40 hours and smoking and drinking. the house is always a mess and who cares. wow everybody sucks and hurts. i cant believe i let you do this to me. whoops whoops! i wish i was oblivious to everything, just like a lot of people. but anywho, i'm going to get all A's this year. and hopefully afford the cost of living... weet weet.<3<3