for anyone who halfway cares...
So...I moved the earlier entry to private. I had a spazz moment. True...it isn't completely healed yet, who could expect it to be? But I'm happy for the two of them. I went and talked to him tonight (she was there but stayed in his room so we could talk...she seems phenomenal)...it was much needed. It's to the point that I don't want us to be together...(haven't for a while) and I can be happy that they are together (it's what they both want) and see that it's best this way. There was still just loose ends that needed tying. It's done now and I believe he and I will still be able to be friends...which is what I was hoping for. Things are okay. I'm strong...I know that. And good will come...I know this as well. That is all.