I need help..........I think
I haven't been able to go to sleep at a reasonable hour for about a month now, and when I finally doze off *which happens to be about six in the morning* I wake up at around 9 or 10, leaving more to be desired. I kind of just lay in my bed staring off into a corner trying to find out what's wrong. I feel like there is some issue I'm leaving unresolved at the end of everyday. I keep feeling like maybe I've wronged someone or even wronged myself, but I can never put my finger on it. Thus I'm at an even further loss of both my sleep and my mind. I feel like I am being a bad person or a failure, but have no clue as to why these thoughts cross my mind. Nothing in recent history would suggest that I am worthless or that I have any problems in life right now. I don't feel emo about anything, and I don't have anything to whine about, at least consciously. Only when I have the fast empty space between 11 pm and 6 am in which I am totally exhausted but unable to clock out do I seem to think something is wrong. When the time to rest my brain comes, I just feel as though I am Losing friends for what I've done wrong, Losing out on life for ventures I have failed in, and Losing out in love for signs that I have missed. However, I can't find out what I can change or what these failures actually are. Am I just going crazy, or does my insomnia have a basis in the realm of reality/