things I want out of life
Here is my comprehensive list of things I want out of my life.
Keep in mind they are mostly thoroughly attainable, I am just shit.
I think at the end of the day the motivating factors for a lot of these is to feel better about myself as a person, and address areas where I realise I am pathetic.
1) I want to get in shape. Like, proper routine visits to the gym. Fit, healthy, in good shape, confident. I'm not in really bad shape or anything but not like gleaming washboard abs.
This is something I could totally do, if I just actually went out and did it, was strict, made a regime for it etc. But alas, hasn't happened yet.
2) Get my license/car. I should've done this 5-6 years ago, oh well.
I originally never got around to it because I left it a little late, and then of all reasons, WAS EMBARASSED OF BEING SEEN LEARNING TO DRIVE AT LIKE 17. What a fucking idiot.
Then I kinda left it, then, and this is something I've only told one other person, I started to have a lot of car crash related nightmares, where I would be driving and just mind blank, and crash in a range of scenarios leading to a certain death. While the nightmares themselves didn't scare me so much, I kinda laughed them off and thought that'd be crazy, like movie type stunts, it slowly has started to scare me off of driving.
But I drove today, and it was AWESOME. I did some dumb shit, forgot the handbrake, forgot my seatbelt for awhile, and didn't realise someone was giving way to em, but it's so EASY, why have I been so worried?
I really want to do this and move on. It's just a freedom I need, and am too old to be without.
3) Getting my degree! I can DO this. I just need to try.
4) Getting a job, in the music or fashion industry.
Now this is a little more difficult, but I could surely get something peon/pleb like, and work my way up.
I don't know, I just need this. I need something I'm interested in, and this is really it outside of 3rd Strike, but that's just a dumb video game.
In the mean time, just any job, and not living at home would be a start I suppose.
I need to grow up and face the fact that life post high school/university is going to be a lot of time being bored and shitty.
Keep in mind they are mostly thoroughly attainable, I am just shit.
I think at the end of the day the motivating factors for a lot of these is to feel better about myself as a person, and address areas where I realise I am pathetic.
1) I want to get in shape. Like, proper routine visits to the gym. Fit, healthy, in good shape, confident. I'm not in really bad shape or anything but not like gleaming washboard abs.
This is something I could totally do, if I just actually went out and did it, was strict, made a regime for it etc. But alas, hasn't happened yet.
2) Get my license/car. I should've done this 5-6 years ago, oh well.
I originally never got around to it because I left it a little late, and then of all reasons, WAS EMBARASSED OF BEING SEEN LEARNING TO DRIVE AT LIKE 17. What a fucking idiot.
Then I kinda left it, then, and this is something I've only told one other person, I started to have a lot of car crash related nightmares, where I would be driving and just mind blank, and crash in a range of scenarios leading to a certain death. While the nightmares themselves didn't scare me so much, I kinda laughed them off and thought that'd be crazy, like movie type stunts, it slowly has started to scare me off of driving.
But I drove today, and it was AWESOME. I did some dumb shit, forgot the handbrake, forgot my seatbelt for awhile, and didn't realise someone was giving way to em, but it's so EASY, why have I been so worried?
I really want to do this and move on. It's just a freedom I need, and am too old to be without.
3) Getting my degree! I can DO this. I just need to try.
4) Getting a job, in the music or fashion industry.
Now this is a little more difficult, but I could surely get something peon/pleb like, and work my way up.
I don't know, I just need this. I need something I'm interested in, and this is really it outside of 3rd Strike, but that's just a dumb video game.
In the mean time, just any job, and not living at home would be a start I suppose.
I need to grow up and face the fact that life post high school/university is going to be a lot of time being bored and shitty.