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So this weekend we went to
We thought that on top of this massive branch would be fun to take pictures....the only problem?! I couldn't reach!
Erin had to help me seeing as I am so vertically challenged.
Erin let go. So I hung there. For about a minute and a half. Real ab work out I'm telling you.
We tried again to lift me onto the branch...
...and it worked!
I finally got up and took the chance to relax...
when an onlooker decided he wanted a pic with the hottie in the tree...(his name was bobby and he smelled AMAZINGGG).
It was a pain in the ass to try to get down( even tho I got some from Erin...)
But in the end it was a hysterical memory, that will most likely last this whole year.
, and had a fan-friggin'-tastic time. Our goal was to try to make it to collegefest but somehow we ended up in downtown Boston and just decided to walk around and explore. We took a buttload of pics and just talked and went in and out of stores. (FYI: I got these really adorable victoria secret sweats and I am enamored with them.) I practically got molested by some dude who was pretending to be a surveyist( kdawg helped me make that one up) and tried to force me to show him my purchases. The ways guys try to pick up girls, really, its pathetic. So we continue to shop....go to see " Just Like Heaven" (side note- ADORABLE movie.)
After the movie we headed to boston common to walk around the park. Its such a beautiful place to take pictures, and I'm seriously thinking about minoring in photography. I just wish Lasell offered Photography classes. I wanted to add my pics on here but webshots is being a fuckhead and won't let me download them, so maybe I'll try again later, we'll see.
So we finally ran out of batteries for my douchebag of a camera( it kept eating them...I'm guessing it was the flash?!) and hopped aboard the T back to Ordway. I ended up sleeping in their room cause Kdawg was over someones house and I knew it would be shit if I were alone.
Today we woke up around 1:30, so with half our day gone we just lounged around their room. Tonight was the first time I went to the gym! It felt so good to work out. I'm really trying to turn my life around here. I mean I think that having a boyfriend and all sort of made me get sloppy and I'm trying to clean myself back up. I think I'm going to try to start going regularly even if it kills me. I'm trying to cut down on my food intake as well. This past summer I was so careless with my diet and now that I have gotten so heavy I just want to shape up. I don't like having the extra poundage and I think eating this way can only get worse.
The only bad thing about this weekend was the fight I just had with jules. I normally would keep these types of things private but I'm sick of holding my thoughts back on account of someone else's feelings getting hurt. We argued again about our friendship. The beginning of this weekend was extremely hard for me, and when I tried to reach out for my supposed friends' help, I felt I had no support. I felt like they decided they had other things to deal with and that i was only another block on their list of already tallying stresses. Thats not why I turned to them. I felt like I needed some words of kindness, or a shoulder to cry on and in return got practically no sympathy. I'm just not sure how I can call them friends when in one of my lowest points I can't come to them for security. I may not ask all the right questions, and I do not expect them to know everything about my life either but when I reach out my hand, I expect someone to grab it. I just felt like I was pushed lower than I started out as. And that hurts when you feel like going to your best friends makes you feel worse. It really does. So I don't know what to do next. I felt hurt so I told jules. It got me nowhere, but we are no longer talking anymore. I didn't fight with her to piss her off or to make her mad. Last year when I had a problem she always told me to tell her. So thats exactly what I did. She can't handle it so shes backing out.
I'm done with letting ppl walk all over me. Now this may come across as "being a bitch" but its how I'm learning to handle things. I'm pissed because I know when to apologize even when its not my fault...but I'm learning that most ppl think it lower of them to do so. And that REALLY gets to me. Apologizing doesnt make you any less of a person. I'm not referring to one person, I'm just generalizing. But what do I know? I've lost two friends, in one week.
So on that note....I'm going to go do something constructive with my time.
Good night everyone.
Oh and one more thing. LISTEN when someone speaks. Don't read the words coming out of their mouths and then ignore them. Because you can talk in circles, and you will NEVER GET ANYWHERE.
I hope we get our kitten this week.
♥
We thought that on top of this massive branch would be fun to take pictures....the only problem?! I couldn't reach!
Erin had to help me seeing as I am so vertically challenged.
Erin let go. So I hung there. For about a minute and a half. Real ab work out I'm telling you.
We tried again to lift me onto the branch...
...and it worked!
I finally got up and took the chance to relax...
when an onlooker decided he wanted a pic with the hottie in the tree...(his name was bobby and he smelled AMAZINGGG).
It was a pain in the ass to try to get down( even tho I got some from Erin...)
But in the end it was a hysterical memory, that will most likely last this whole year.
, and had a fan-friggin'-tastic time. Our goal was to try to make it to collegefest but somehow we ended up in downtown Boston and just decided to walk around and explore. We took a buttload of pics and just talked and went in and out of stores. (FYI: I got these really adorable victoria secret sweats and I am enamored with them.) I practically got molested by some dude who was pretending to be a surveyist( kdawg helped me make that one up) and tried to force me to show him my purchases. The ways guys try to pick up girls, really, its pathetic. So we continue to shop....go to see " Just Like Heaven" (side note- ADORABLE movie.)
After the movie we headed to boston common to walk around the park. Its such a beautiful place to take pictures, and I'm seriously thinking about minoring in photography. I just wish Lasell offered Photography classes. I wanted to add my pics on here but webshots is being a fuckhead and won't let me download them, so maybe I'll try again later, we'll see.
So we finally ran out of batteries for my douchebag of a camera( it kept eating them...I'm guessing it was the flash?!) and hopped aboard the T back to Ordway. I ended up sleeping in their room cause Kdawg was over someones house and I knew it would be shit if I were alone.
Today we woke up around 1:30, so with half our day gone we just lounged around their room. Tonight was the first time I went to the gym! It felt so good to work out. I'm really trying to turn my life around here. I mean I think that having a boyfriend and all sort of made me get sloppy and I'm trying to clean myself back up. I think I'm going to try to start going regularly even if it kills me. I'm trying to cut down on my food intake as well. This past summer I was so careless with my diet and now that I have gotten so heavy I just want to shape up. I don't like having the extra poundage and I think eating this way can only get worse.
The only bad thing about this weekend was the fight I just had with jules. I normally would keep these types of things private but I'm sick of holding my thoughts back on account of someone else's feelings getting hurt. We argued again about our friendship. The beginning of this weekend was extremely hard for me, and when I tried to reach out for my supposed friends' help, I felt I had no support. I felt like they decided they had other things to deal with and that i was only another block on their list of already tallying stresses. Thats not why I turned to them. I felt like I needed some words of kindness, or a shoulder to cry on and in return got practically no sympathy. I'm just not sure how I can call them friends when in one of my lowest points I can't come to them for security. I may not ask all the right questions, and I do not expect them to know everything about my life either but when I reach out my hand, I expect someone to grab it. I just felt like I was pushed lower than I started out as. And that hurts when you feel like going to your best friends makes you feel worse. It really does. So I don't know what to do next. I felt hurt so I told jules. It got me nowhere, but we are no longer talking anymore. I didn't fight with her to piss her off or to make her mad. Last year when I had a problem she always told me to tell her. So thats exactly what I did. She can't handle it so shes backing out.
I'm done with letting ppl walk all over me. Now this may come across as "being a bitch" but its how I'm learning to handle things. I'm pissed because I know when to apologize even when its not my fault...but I'm learning that most ppl think it lower of them to do so. And that REALLY gets to me. Apologizing doesnt make you any less of a person. I'm not referring to one person, I'm just generalizing. But what do I know? I've lost two friends, in one week.
So on that note....I'm going to go do something constructive with my time.
Good night everyone.
Oh and one more thing. LISTEN when someone speaks. Don't read the words coming out of their mouths and then ignore them. Because you can talk in circles, and you will NEVER GET ANYWHERE.
I hope we get our kitten this week.
♥