The State of Me
I'm not sure the last time I post anything personal here so here goes
Type your cut contents here.First off let me state that I'm mostly putting this here for me. Another small part kind of feels the need to explain myself. I'm not sure that last part make since to any one but me. Back in September I pretty much had a nervous breakdown. It had slowly been coming on but the events of that last year in Boston (R being out to sea, The Boy just being The Boy, that bullshit with Used2BVader, moving across country ) broke me. I have for years battled depression with out any help, and it just became to much. I asked for help. It might have been the hardest thing I've ever done. I've always been the strong one, the one every one else came to with there problems. To say I shocked them would be an understatement, but I now know what's wrong with me. I have Social Anxiety Disorder (http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/mental-health-social-anxiety-disorder). Believe it or not all the things that I avoid in RL bleed over on to internet. I would love to comment so many times, but it's hard to type when your hands shake. That's the reason it's taken me so long just to say this. I am trying, I'm on meds and I make my self go out and do things, now if I can just start being a little more active here I'll feel even better.
Now on to some thing fun. I got a puppy for my birthday (back in December). He is a Golden Retriever mix, named Apollo. We adopted him from the SPCA and he has got to be the sweetest thing I've ever met. He's 5 months old now ( 45 lbs) and the other two dogs think he's their walking chew toy. I'll post pictures soon.
Type your cut contents here.First off let me state that I'm mostly putting this here for me. Another small part kind of feels the need to explain myself. I'm not sure that last part make since to any one but me. Back in September I pretty much had a nervous breakdown. It had slowly been coming on but the events of that last year in Boston (R being out to sea, The Boy just being The Boy, that bullshit with Used2BVader, moving across country ) broke me. I have for years battled depression with out any help, and it just became to much. I asked for help. It might have been the hardest thing I've ever done. I've always been the strong one, the one every one else came to with there problems. To say I shocked them would be an understatement, but I now know what's wrong with me. I have Social Anxiety Disorder (http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/mental-health-social-anxiety-disorder). Believe it or not all the things that I avoid in RL bleed over on to internet. I would love to comment so many times, but it's hard to type when your hands shake. That's the reason it's taken me so long just to say this. I am trying, I'm on meds and I make my self go out and do things, now if I can just start being a little more active here I'll feel even better.
Now on to some thing fun. I got a puppy for my birthday (back in December). He is a Golden Retriever mix, named Apollo. We adopted him from the SPCA and he has got to be the sweetest thing I've ever met. He's 5 months old now ( 45 lbs) and the other two dogs think he's their walking chew toy. I'll post pictures soon.