Oct 30, 2008 13:24
i am so content right now. i have no money, and the money i make i end up spending on things that i need. i love the bare minimum. i love to not buy extravagant things. i honestly don't understand why people want so much excess money. why? why do you need a new stuffed animal for every day of the year? it just doesn't satisfy me. i am so happy right now i could burst. i have been working towards this lack of materialism all summer, and i am so so happy that i've finally reached detachment. i can't say it's complete detachment, but if it had to be, i would be just as happy. i'm just so proud of myself. i really feel like i worked hard and reached a goal, like people who scrub a dirty bathroom for hours.
what am i not proud of? america. i hate to bitch about a country in general, but really, why have a million kids. why use so many resources. why be so selfish? apparently we're one of the only countries where discussing limiting how many kids you can have is taboo. i can't even explain because i'm terrible with words, but it pisses me off. and the dumb part is, even if we did have less kids, there's all these old people. and government? why? why not just have small villages with tiny little governments. why cant we just live on tiny planets, just big enough for 1000 people. it would make interdependence soooo much easier. i'm going to do that when i grow up, build tiny planets.
anyways, i feel kind of bad. it's just one of those months where nothing is going well for anyone. and everyone is so sad and has all these problems. i really don't like to see everyone so sad, but i can't hide the fact that i'm very happy. so i am sorry in advance for smiling when you cry. that's just how i am, i always smile when i cry. i read too many books, which makes drama just a fun thing for me. but really, i hate to see everyone so sad. i wish that some sad people could just cheer up. look on the bright side. it's a very lovely fall. a very wonderful fall.