Absence
well it's been a long break since i've done this...broken comps and rejections have done a number on my sanity...def
i've flipped out a few times lately...
john def went past his limit...lost dignity...does he know the def? i can't change my feelings for him...he wants me to...he's hurt and i respect that but the comments that have been flying lately are unnecessary.
and i went out with matt last night...not what u'd call the perfect guy but he def has potential...smoking is goin and so is the weed eventually and we'll be ok...i need more fun nights like that i think...
i can't stand being rejected at all...why did i bother these past 4 years to do anything? i could've gotten into that school with a much lower GPA ya know? sad
bryan and andrew are together that's another weird thing. i don't hate the sinners just the sin...but how can i judge at all? my life isn't exactly sinless...def not...i feel so alone like no one seems to understand me ever...and i know lots of others have felt like that before me.
why do i save everthing...no garbage for me...no one's gonna care what i held on to i don't think...if i'm dead tomorrow they're not gonna go into my stuff and be like what a nice receipt from 5 years ago...i'm weird ok stopping
i've flipped out a few times lately...
john def went past his limit...lost dignity...does he know the def? i can't change my feelings for him...he wants me to...he's hurt and i respect that but the comments that have been flying lately are unnecessary.
and i went out with matt last night...not what u'd call the perfect guy but he def has potential...smoking is goin and so is the weed eventually and we'll be ok...i need more fun nights like that i think...
i can't stand being rejected at all...why did i bother these past 4 years to do anything? i could've gotten into that school with a much lower GPA ya know? sad
bryan and andrew are together that's another weird thing. i don't hate the sinners just the sin...but how can i judge at all? my life isn't exactly sinless...def not...i feel so alone like no one seems to understand me ever...and i know lots of others have felt like that before me.
why do i save everthing...no garbage for me...no one's gonna care what i held on to i don't think...if i'm dead tomorrow they're not gonna go into my stuff and be like what a nice receipt from 5 years ago...i'm weird ok stopping