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i haven't written in a while. maybe it's b/c i've been busy with other things. i guess i'll update somewhat.
i'm on the spanish river cross country team. i have a car. i'm going to quit my job soon. dan is out of the country. ron is out of the country. and john is out of the country.
i'm really tired today, my friend took me to a party last night. it was okay. there were ALOT of people. it's kinda weird seeing 200 people (i left very early) in a house all walking around with red cups. it's just alittle strange. or atleast it is to me. so i got bored there and decided to go back to my friends place. we made tacos and watched some movies. i guess it was a good night. I watched alot of people get drunk and shit faced which was a good laugh and made tacos and watched movies. i'm just pissed i got up at 6:45 and went to bed late and have to go to work.
i also got a hair cut. i really like it. it's hot. i'll post a pic when i get around to it. but i got it done awhile ago.
oh i remembered something else. i am going to need to get surgery on my left knee. i'm indescribable on the feeling. i mean running has become part of my life now. i run 6 days a week but b/c of a problem with my knee that forces me to sit home and ice it and hop around with some pain i'm not supposed to run. which is driving me crazy along with my 3 couches. so next month i am going to see what my REAL options are not just what i'm going to do. until then i shouldn't be running but i do 3 days a week.
i guess b/c i finally found something that i'm good at and enjoy. maybe i like running so much b/c each time your pushing yourself alittle further and the sport is a challenge.
yet what has most affected me would be the death of my cat. my cat spook died june 15 2005. she would have been 6 in october. she died of feline leukemia. the last 2 1/2 weeks of her life were the hardest for me. i didn't know what to do. she would hide and stay very still. she was not her self. and it was hard knowing when and if she needed to be put down.
the day we were going to put her down she was playing and purring and acting "somewhat" like her old self. so i decided maybe she could pull out of it again just like before and everything would be fine. but a week later she died when i was on my way home from work. i mean i wasn't even 5 mins away. it's just really disappointing to know that i'll never hold her again. see her. hear her. play with her or have her around ever again. it really sucks. it's like loosing a family member. but the hardest thing of all was having no one to talk to about any of this, having to go to the vet and do these things by myself with all this sadness locked inside of me.
enough on that note. i don't need or want any one to feel sadness for me. b/c it's over and nothing could have changed the out come.
i'm on the spanish river cross country team. i have a car. i'm going to quit my job soon. dan is out of the country. ron is out of the country. and john is out of the country.
i'm really tired today, my friend took me to a party last night. it was okay. there were ALOT of people. it's kinda weird seeing 200 people (i left very early) in a house all walking around with red cups. it's just alittle strange. or atleast it is to me. so i got bored there and decided to go back to my friends place. we made tacos and watched some movies. i guess it was a good night. I watched alot of people get drunk and shit faced which was a good laugh and made tacos and watched movies. i'm just pissed i got up at 6:45 and went to bed late and have to go to work.
i also got a hair cut. i really like it. it's hot. i'll post a pic when i get around to it. but i got it done awhile ago.
oh i remembered something else. i am going to need to get surgery on my left knee. i'm indescribable on the feeling. i mean running has become part of my life now. i run 6 days a week but b/c of a problem with my knee that forces me to sit home and ice it and hop around with some pain i'm not supposed to run. which is driving me crazy along with my 3 couches. so next month i am going to see what my REAL options are not just what i'm going to do. until then i shouldn't be running but i do 3 days a week.
i guess b/c i finally found something that i'm good at and enjoy. maybe i like running so much b/c each time your pushing yourself alittle further and the sport is a challenge.
yet what has most affected me would be the death of my cat. my cat spook died june 15 2005. she would have been 6 in october. she died of feline leukemia. the last 2 1/2 weeks of her life were the hardest for me. i didn't know what to do. she would hide and stay very still. she was not her self. and it was hard knowing when and if she needed to be put down.
the day we were going to put her down she was playing and purring and acting "somewhat" like her old self. so i decided maybe she could pull out of it again just like before and everything would be fine. but a week later she died when i was on my way home from work. i mean i wasn't even 5 mins away. it's just really disappointing to know that i'll never hold her again. see her. hear her. play with her or have her around ever again. it really sucks. it's like loosing a family member. but the hardest thing of all was having no one to talk to about any of this, having to go to the vet and do these things by myself with all this sadness locked inside of me.
enough on that note. i don't need or want any one to feel sadness for me. b/c it's over and nothing could have changed the out come.