weddings and packing and exhaustion, oh my!
baaah. i THINK i'm done packing.
i was an idiot this year (ha i juss typed ideat) and didnt' let my mom help me. God bless her soul - she did anyway. but that was only the first phase. Ben doesn't get to see her cry when she lets go of both of us. (little brother's off to Theil College). I went there for the beginning of his orientation. REally nice school. just... not Bethany. I'm going home tomorrow. I've been so lost this entire.. well, since i came back in june. then i left in june for camp. then i left camp a lot.. but nothing felt like home.
it was odd, though.. at camp, PA felt like home.. but these past few weeks, neither home nor WV feels like home.
I kinda feel like the boyfriend. "you're home" hmm. maybe home really is in his arms.
not to get mushy, but when we were eating today at the wedding reception (congratulations Tim and Wendy Mellring!) the drunk (or overly ecstatic, who am i to say?) women behind us were egging "You're next!" and i'm like AAAH! .. wait a minute.. i'm twenty and un-pregnant. muahaha i've defied society yet again.
Chris and I are so mushy. and then funny, too. He got to hear all the embarrassing potty stories today.. and unfortunately, he's heard some of the ones I'VE missed... *sigh* oh well.
I think it'd strange how comfortable i am with him being part of the family. i mean the big family, too. not just the parents.. .. heehee.. I LOVE HIM.
after the last few fiascos with that word.. my eyes widen and i make sure it's ok to say it. but damn. he feels great being in my heart. eee!
AFter tomorrow's breakfast it will be a while until we see each other. we've seen each other every day since we've been dating, too..
Bethany College, I'm coming home.
(Morlan! W00t!)
oooo.. my room # is 322.. that's the closest US highway. neat, eh?
i can't sleep. heh. BUUUT!! even though i'm all jittery and nervous, I DON'T HAVE HEARTBURN!!!! THANK YOU PRILOSEC OTC!!!
i was an idiot this year (ha i juss typed ideat) and didnt' let my mom help me. God bless her soul - she did anyway. but that was only the first phase. Ben doesn't get to see her cry when she lets go of both of us. (little brother's off to Theil College). I went there for the beginning of his orientation. REally nice school. just... not Bethany. I'm going home tomorrow. I've been so lost this entire.. well, since i came back in june. then i left in june for camp. then i left camp a lot.. but nothing felt like home.
it was odd, though.. at camp, PA felt like home.. but these past few weeks, neither home nor WV feels like home.
I kinda feel like the boyfriend. "you're home" hmm. maybe home really is in his arms.
not to get mushy, but when we were eating today at the wedding reception (congratulations Tim and Wendy Mellring!) the drunk (or overly ecstatic, who am i to say?) women behind us were egging "You're next!" and i'm like AAAH! .. wait a minute.. i'm twenty and un-pregnant. muahaha i've defied society yet again.
Chris and I are so mushy. and then funny, too. He got to hear all the embarrassing potty stories today.. and unfortunately, he's heard some of the ones I'VE missed... *sigh* oh well.
I think it'd strange how comfortable i am with him being part of the family. i mean the big family, too. not just the parents.. .. heehee.. I LOVE HIM.
after the last few fiascos with that word.. my eyes widen and i make sure it's ok to say it. but damn. he feels great being in my heart. eee!
AFter tomorrow's breakfast it will be a while until we see each other. we've seen each other every day since we've been dating, too..
Bethany College, I'm coming home.
(Morlan! W00t!)
oooo.. my room # is 322.. that's the closest US highway. neat, eh?
i can't sleep. heh. BUUUT!! even though i'm all jittery and nervous, I DON'T HAVE HEARTBURN!!!! THANK YOU PRILOSEC OTC!!!