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[gabmnky]

Shawn's came down last night, we all talked and I got the feeling that he's genuinely sorry for what he did. We'll be working on Shawn's issues and what he'll do to make it up to me.

Here's to hoping for the best and reforging an old friendship.

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[anonymous]

BUT; if any part of the 'good' Shawn is left, there's a part of Gabo -which sickens me- and even a part of me that will help you. You will not be welcome in my home. You will not be allowed to know where I live or work, but we will come, we will help you, we will hold you, when, if you're ready. If you've resigned your life to be a psychotic (and that's what you are, no mistake!) and a drug addict, that's your choice. Just know, leave US alone. We have not tried to bother you other than to take care of our business (ie; property, lease). You threw a fit, and wrecked the apartment back at Windridge. Can you remember that, can you? In fact, Gabo makes it a point to try not to show up at Windridge--and he hasn't in a while--when he knows you're there.

He also saw the teeth marks on the various aerosols. You're kidding no one but yourself.

Try rationalrecovery.com. The 12 steps are a farce. That is, if you want to be anything other than a violent, drooling, or comatose addict. Get your shit together man. I don't want to be any part of your life, don't flatter yourself. But I would like the Shawn I saw a glimpse of be that Shawn again.

No one owes you shit. You shat where you ate.

You stole. You lied. You sucked up the lives of those around you. Accept it. No matter what you do, own it. You want to keep being an addict? Be honest about it. You want to get clean? Mean it.

You've fucked over every one who ever loved you or had a chance of loving you. But all you can do is blame them. What's one constant in all of this? YOU. Maybe it's time to re-evaluate things. I had to do it once. It wasn't easy. It hurt like a bitch. But it's worth it to finally get things straight, and clean.
~Jen