Aug 18, 2008 21:57
I'd thought of so many things I'd say in my last post home and I have no clue. I've been saying "I leave in in two weeks....one week...next Tuesday." But as I type this and sit here it is actually sinking. I can feel it like a stone descending down my esophagus. It's hard to swallow. Suppose this is goodbye? I guess so. I'd also thought of so many song lyrics to end this post with but they've all slipped away. I'm kind of speechless right now I guess. I really don't want to face my mother at the airport tomorrow only because she's going to cry really hard and make a scene. Which means I guess I'll cry and everyone will stare at me as I go through security clearly as the college kid flying far away. I'm really not sure how to handle saying goodbye to my dad. It'll happen at a really inconvenient time between orientation agendas and I'll walk in with the impression that I'm a cry baby. Interesting that they will get to see a side of Gabi that so few of you got to. I really want to go into a room and just let it all out but I don't know when I can without anyone really knowing. It's got to come out sometime. Maybe I can slowly breathe it out instead of letting it burst? We'll see. Next time I'll be posting I'll be on the other side of the country. I'm not sure whats more overwhelming, the fact that I'm leaving for college tomorrow or the fact that I start school next Monday.
*Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away*