we break up so fast and we, we make up so passionately
why dont i believe in long drawn out posts anymore. i suppose something will happen and will thus bring forth some long ass deep ass post. but for now, just the bullet points.
-since i have been at CSULA i keeping getting this on again off again feeling of depression. like i will be okay for a few weeks and then suddenly WHAM! im deppressed and feeling like...disgustingly alone. like really alone. i look up and i see so many faces of people that i am 'supposed' to be friends with, but looking deeper will let me know that i cannot trust them for shit. this fades ofcourse, and the cycle continues. i wanna shake it. i hate feeling like shit every three weeks. wish i had the answer to this.
-the work load from school has most definitely increased this quarter. and it doesnt make this situation any better to have a 8am english 101 class. i know that im going to do well, but im not as confident as last quarter. everytime i feel myself slipping, though, i pick myself up and get back on it (thats what she said..lmmfao)
-my sister is entering this competition. like this hair and makeup comp and she doesnt have any money for it..so im going to get her the money. the only thing is the 'how' im going to get it...which shall not be discussed but as i told my bff tracie (thats gonna invite me to get spanked by nina hartely) lol, its nothing to worry about.
-im writing a paper on..a certain situation. mostly because i know it will be an A fucking paper. but also because i know it well enough to talk about now; almost like i am out side of my self as i write the paper.
-latoya (girl that goes to my school) called my brilliant last night.. i let her read something that i just recently wrote. and like i let people read thing that i write all the time and i usually get the "oh thats really good" and things like that but..brilliant? fuck. that blew me away. maybe it has something to do with the fact that im insecure, but it is just hard to believe that 'brialliant' and the subject of me would go in the same sentence. idk. but that made me light up from ear to ear.
okay..hmm i think that is it. im gonna go to sleep now im extremely exhausted. love to all
-since i have been at CSULA i keeping getting this on again off again feeling of depression. like i will be okay for a few weeks and then suddenly WHAM! im deppressed and feeling like...disgustingly alone. like really alone. i look up and i see so many faces of people that i am 'supposed' to be friends with, but looking deeper will let me know that i cannot trust them for shit. this fades ofcourse, and the cycle continues. i wanna shake it. i hate feeling like shit every three weeks. wish i had the answer to this.
-the work load from school has most definitely increased this quarter. and it doesnt make this situation any better to have a 8am english 101 class. i know that im going to do well, but im not as confident as last quarter. everytime i feel myself slipping, though, i pick myself up and get back on it (thats what she said..lmmfao)
-my sister is entering this competition. like this hair and makeup comp and she doesnt have any money for it..so im going to get her the money. the only thing is the 'how' im going to get it...which shall not be discussed but as i told my bff tracie (thats gonna invite me to get spanked by nina hartely) lol, its nothing to worry about.
-im writing a paper on..a certain situation. mostly because i know it will be an A fucking paper. but also because i know it well enough to talk about now; almost like i am out side of my self as i write the paper.
-latoya (girl that goes to my school) called my brilliant last night.. i let her read something that i just recently wrote. and like i let people read thing that i write all the time and i usually get the "oh thats really good" and things like that but..brilliant? fuck. that blew me away. maybe it has something to do with the fact that im insecure, but it is just hard to believe that 'brialliant' and the subject of me would go in the same sentence. idk. but that made me light up from ear to ear.
okay..hmm i think that is it. im gonna go to sleep now im extremely exhausted. love to all