you dont have to call anymore, i wont pick up the phone.
soo yea. im hella tired and i should be fuckin sleep cuz i have to wake up at like 9am ta get my hair done.
i work too much! thats what this is about..lol well some of it. yea i work hella much, and i kinda wanna quit cuz i dont wanna gain weight. [gabby has no self control btw] but im gonna stop. i am. and i feel like succchhh a fuckin loser for like admitting that, but i know im just gonna get bigger and bigger and the depressed and i dont want that to happen. so friday when i get paid im gonna get a gym membership, cuz really? no. cant have it. LIKE AT ALL!! and there is nothing wrong with big ppl, but its like i dont like myself when i am. and i should, but i dont. so before i get bigger, i needa quit it.
speaking of quitting, ive played with the idea of not smoking, buuttt its like..idk. i keep telling myself that im not addicted..lol but i believe i most certaintly am.iono how it got like this either. one day i was sneaking them out of my grandmothers purse, and then before you know it i was asking ppl for smokes when me and john would take our strolls down pine.but i guess you have to want to quit to actually do so. so is the fact that i dont want to sad? iono. and i could really care less.
uhm. im talking to andrea[1st gf, turned into somethinglikebestfriend] on aim and:
DREAH18:Oh are you working a lot to impress melissa? Don't get mad im just curious
GABBZ0007:uhmm..fuck no
im working alot so i cant get a car and get away from my sister finally
DREAH18:Oh thank god
GABBZ0007:and besides, nothing i do impresses her. ever.
DREAH18:Well I want u to hang in there im proud of you.. And not that it matters.. You impress me
yea..sigh*. iono what to say about that.
melissa txt me today and said that we talk too much? and im like what?? what do you mean we talk to much. gahhh. sooo many twists and turns.
and i keep climbing and hoping things will change.
thats al folks. going ta sleep now.
i work too much! thats what this is about..lol well some of it. yea i work hella much, and i kinda wanna quit cuz i dont wanna gain weight. [gabby has no self control btw] but im gonna stop. i am. and i feel like succchhh a fuckin loser for like admitting that, but i know im just gonna get bigger and bigger and the depressed and i dont want that to happen. so friday when i get paid im gonna get a gym membership, cuz really? no. cant have it. LIKE AT ALL!! and there is nothing wrong with big ppl, but its like i dont like myself when i am. and i should, but i dont. so before i get bigger, i needa quit it.
speaking of quitting, ive played with the idea of not smoking, buuttt its like..idk. i keep telling myself that im not addicted..lol but i believe i most certaintly am.iono how it got like this either. one day i was sneaking them out of my grandmothers purse, and then before you know it i was asking ppl for smokes when me and john would take our strolls down pine.but i guess you have to want to quit to actually do so. so is the fact that i dont want to sad? iono. and i could really care less.
uhm. im talking to andrea[1st gf, turned into somethinglikebestfriend] on aim and:
DREAH18:Oh are you working a lot to impress melissa? Don't get mad im just curious
GABBZ0007:uhmm..fuck no
im working alot so i cant get a car and get away from my sister finally
DREAH18:Oh thank god
GABBZ0007:and besides, nothing i do impresses her. ever.
DREAH18:Well I want u to hang in there im proud of you.. And not that it matters.. You impress me
yea..sigh*. iono what to say about that.
melissa txt me today and said that we talk too much? and im like what?? what do you mean we talk to much. gahhh. sooo many twists and turns.
and i keep climbing and hoping things will change.
thats al folks. going ta sleep now.