been a while...
i dont know what to write. its been so long. i've been working all month, and took a vacation for five days to tucson, rented a uhaul and drove the contents of my old studio apartment up to sf. i find out on monday more about the job, if it gets extended past this month - i know it does, but how far i dont really know. could be another month, could be indefinite salary with benefits. I am rooting for that last one, it will make or break moving into the city, getting chest surgery, fixing my car. It may even make or break my relationship, considering the traveling back and forth has made both of us miserable and snippy at each other.
i hate my house and i dont want to be here anymore. traveling to and from work everyday costs over $10 and two extra hours of my time. For the pay of course its worth it, but for the stress it causes in my life, and for the idea that public transportation should be encouraged by any decent city these days it is completly unacceptable. If i move into the city, am on salary, etc, i'll probably become a motorcycle or scooter person. so many ifs.
its 9pm and i am exhausted. not even able to write very well. I started off in the city today and wandered around the haight in the rain. was cold and wet by the time the bus arrived - at a busstop that i only knew existed because i had missed the last one by a half block and saw people getting on it at this particular corner. public transportation. bah. had a nice conversation with an old man from onterio about whether it was an actual bus stop, since we were huddled under a tree that was doing very little to keep us dry.
i'm at the end of a really good book by neil gaimen and terry pratchett that the brain lent me. i am at the not putting it down phase. i think i'm going to go huddle under the covers and finish it.
i hate my house and i dont want to be here anymore. traveling to and from work everyday costs over $10 and two extra hours of my time. For the pay of course its worth it, but for the stress it causes in my life, and for the idea that public transportation should be encouraged by any decent city these days it is completly unacceptable. If i move into the city, am on salary, etc, i'll probably become a motorcycle or scooter person. so many ifs.
its 9pm and i am exhausted. not even able to write very well. I started off in the city today and wandered around the haight in the rain. was cold and wet by the time the bus arrived - at a busstop that i only knew existed because i had missed the last one by a half block and saw people getting on it at this particular corner. public transportation. bah. had a nice conversation with an old man from onterio about whether it was an actual bus stop, since we were huddled under a tree that was doing very little to keep us dry.
i'm at the end of a really good book by neil gaimen and terry pratchett that the brain lent me. i am at the not putting it down phase. i think i'm going to go huddle under the covers and finish it.