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Tonight was a really good night.
Went to Panera Bread, and had good food. I went to an orchestra concert. It was beautiful. I really enjoyed it, and I found myself longing to play the flute again. I miss it.
Then I went with my roommate to the room where that kid...which I may like... lives. But we were there to play rock band his other suitemate who went to my high school. And we had a weird past, NOT LIKE THAT, but I was in love with his best friend in middle school.... yeah.... and tonight it was really nice playing rock band with him and his roommate and my roommate and suitemate.
Then I got tired of Rock Band and went out into the main living room and just played video games with the boy that I may like. My other suitemate and his roommate are dating, so they left, and it was just us two. We just played a video game, and talked. It was nice. Really nice.
He kinda confided in me about his roommate dating mysuitemate and how he feels like he is losing his best friend to his girlfriend, who is also a good friend of his. He wants to have a separate time with each of them.
I liked talking to him. He's just so nice. And he really listens, despite being hyper and having ADHD. I feel like we connect... but maybe he doesn't see it. For right now, I don't know his sexuality. He is OBSESSED, AND I MEAN OBSESSED... WITH JUSTIN BEIBER. I think I am just going to say he's asexual. He never talks about how hot JB is, he really likes his music, but has posters on his wall.... a lot of them... which freaks me out...
Then a whole bunch of us went back to my suite and we all played poker, but he didn't come. I tried getting him to, but he just wouldn't. IDK, whatever. Then my one friend from last semester, contacted the one kid who was playing with us. I didn't even know they knew each other, so I told him to tell her to come up and play. SO SHE DID! It was nice seeing her, and the three of us are going to eat together tomorrow night.
I had a shitty day with lack of sleep, but my evening was great.
I'm still up in the air about liking this boy. How can I like him if he may be gay? With ADHD, he is veryyyy childish. We all agree that it may be that he just hasn't come to the age of liking girls.
I don't see him as often as I'd like to, and when I don't see him, I don't really think about him. But when I am with him, I just want to kiss him. And the other thing is that... he hasn't done anything... like drinking, smoking, weed, partying, a girl friend, nothing. How am I supposed to react to that?
FUCK. I DON'T NEED TO HAVE FEELINGS RIGHT NOW.
I LOVE AND HATE FEELING GIDDY AND SHIT, BUT LIKE... I DON'T NEED THIS. It's not always the best thing to feel. ATLEAST NOT NOW. FUCK.
Went to Panera Bread, and had good food. I went to an orchestra concert. It was beautiful. I really enjoyed it, and I found myself longing to play the flute again. I miss it.
Then I went with my roommate to the room where that kid...which I may like... lives. But we were there to play rock band his other suitemate who went to my high school. And we had a weird past, NOT LIKE THAT, but I was in love with his best friend in middle school.... yeah.... and tonight it was really nice playing rock band with him and his roommate and my roommate and suitemate.
Then I got tired of Rock Band and went out into the main living room and just played video games with the boy that I may like. My other suitemate and his roommate are dating, so they left, and it was just us two. We just played a video game, and talked. It was nice. Really nice.
He kinda confided in me about his roommate dating mysuitemate and how he feels like he is losing his best friend to his girlfriend, who is also a good friend of his. He wants to have a separate time with each of them.
I liked talking to him. He's just so nice. And he really listens, despite being hyper and having ADHD. I feel like we connect... but maybe he doesn't see it. For right now, I don't know his sexuality. He is OBSESSED, AND I MEAN OBSESSED... WITH JUSTIN BEIBER. I think I am just going to say he's asexual. He never talks about how hot JB is, he really likes his music, but has posters on his wall.... a lot of them... which freaks me out...
Then a whole bunch of us went back to my suite and we all played poker, but he didn't come. I tried getting him to, but he just wouldn't. IDK, whatever. Then my one friend from last semester, contacted the one kid who was playing with us. I didn't even know they knew each other, so I told him to tell her to come up and play. SO SHE DID! It was nice seeing her, and the three of us are going to eat together tomorrow night.
I had a shitty day with lack of sleep, but my evening was great.
I'm still up in the air about liking this boy. How can I like him if he may be gay? With ADHD, he is veryyyy childish. We all agree that it may be that he just hasn't come to the age of liking girls.
I don't see him as often as I'd like to, and when I don't see him, I don't really think about him. But when I am with him, I just want to kiss him. And the other thing is that... he hasn't done anything... like drinking, smoking, weed, partying, a girl friend, nothing. How am I supposed to react to that?
FUCK. I DON'T NEED TO HAVE FEELINGS RIGHT NOW.
I LOVE AND HATE FEELING GIDDY AND SHIT, BUT LIKE... I DON'T NEED THIS. It's not always the best thing to feel. ATLEAST NOT NOW. FUCK.