im sorry...
i hate myself more than ever right now....
alex, im sooo sorry for what happened tonight...
i didnt mean anything i said to you...really i didnt...
im sorry im a bitch...
im sorry im mean to you...
im sorry i treat you like shit...
im sorry for the way i am...
im sorry for not listening to you....
im sorry for never being there for you....
im sorry im not a good gi/f to you..(dont say i am please i know the truth for many reasons)
im just...sorry!!!
god i hate myself! ugh...
im sorry!!!
so obvuously im not having the best day..or summer..or life.....
but! not everything was bad...
my alex came over and we sat around for awhile..(im sorry) then we walked up to mcdonalds and ate nuggets and stuff! we talked about everything almost...all the way there it was cool....i love haning out with him! then we came back and played b ball! then i fucked things up..and started shit...
i cant stress how much im sorry alex....im sorry!
i love you alex i love you so much.....please believe me...