I HATE BOYS & LOVE THEM AT THE SAME TIME
I hate crushes. especially my kind of crushes. I always get these little kid crushes where you get giddy and giggly and smile a lot. I just wish that I wouldn't have a crush unless something was going to happen. Im so sick of crushing and be disappointed only to move on to the next person and start the cycle all over again. I love the butterfly rush of adrenaline I get when I have a crush..I just hate the rest of it. I dunno...If something is meant to happen it will, I just need to learn assertiveness. We'll see....Anyway, went to spanish service today..YAY FOR EASTER. (This crush of mine happened to be there also.) We had fun...Then we got to eat actual real food!!!! It was yummy. Now I sit here reminiscing about this crush of mine....and feeling like an idiot for not talking to him, but all of you guys know how I am. I need to focus my attention on today and the meaning of today instead of my crush. Thats about it.